yet again I'm asking why us

Why do things have to get awful before they can ge better? I just dontunderstand. My life was going pretty good besides a few minor issues, but then things had to fall downhill. No, they did not slip, they FELL!!!!!
I found out last week that my grandaddy has a blockage in his leg to his heart. He kept telling the doctors and they wouldnt listen. They finally found it and he is one of these men that loves to walk and goes to the flea market every Saturday and the doctor said walking could cause him to have a heart attack. Its hard on him I'm sure and he's very hard-headed(it's where I get it from). He has to go to the surgeon Tuesday to set up an appointment for the surgery. Please keep him in your prayers.
As if that wasn't enough for my mom by itself, my brother left for Iraq Friday again, only this time he left on bad terms. You see my sister wrecked her car about a year ago and she has my old car now, but she has to carry her kids a 6 hour distance to meet their dad sometimes and that car wont make it, so she's been using my brothers car. Well he go mad because there was a cigerette hole in the seat and hid the car an keys before he left, not to mention the caris in my parents name and being paid for by my parents. He also emailed my mom Thursday during the day and said "to hell with her", in those exact words.He left Friday with no goodbye phone call or anything. What do we do? How do I comfort my mom in a timelike this? I just dont know what to do!

bags and umbrellas

I am in need of some help..haha..no not that kind..lol. I need either a cute small bookbag or a cute computer bag for a reasonable price. Does anyone have any suggestions of where I can find any cute, cheap ones? Also I want a cute small umbrella because I dont feel like getting soaked again going to class and freezing the whole time. Any suggestions would be greatly appreciated!!!

It a comeback!

So how's everyone been doing? Yes, I do mean for you to actually answer me. I miss everyone. Things are finally getting back on track. I'm in college and currently trying to find a job. Everythings going really good, so I want to know how everyone else is. Hopefully this is my big comeback to blogger life :)

Scared to grow up!

The title says it all, I am SCARED! I am so scared of the life that is in front of me. I'm scared to grow up. I'm scared to have to do things on my own. I don't know how I will make it.

I start classes Friday and I'm not ready. I have these last few days of summer and then comes reality. What does my future hold for me? Oh the possibilities.

I know I'm stressing for nothing, but I'm one of those girls who doesn't do well with change. How am I going to survive?