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I would like to thank Tales of a Short Southern Momma for giving me this lovely award! It's the first one I've gotten in a long time. I'm sooo excited! Thanks sooo much!

The Happy 101 Award is to thank the wonderful bloggers that make you smile!


Here are the rules:
List 10 things that make you happy.
(try to do one of those things TODAY!)


Tag 10 bloggers that brighten your day.
Make sure to link back to the person that tagged you!

1. My family and friends!! I don't know what I would do without them :)

2. Blogging!

3. Trying different coffee drinks and hot chocolate (preferably with the good homeade taste and whip cream or marshmallows, but i'll drink it anyway :)

4. Reading and watching movies.

5. Baking and cooking. I absoltely love cuppycakes and anything I can find in stores that has cuppycakes on it. LOVE IT!!!

6. Shopping. Especially for shoes!!! I love shoes with a passion! Especially when I can get really good deals on them!

7. Dora and Carebears and Hello Kitty. Yup thats right.I am still a little kid at heart.

8. Working out, whether its Zumba, running, walking, or working out on machines. I always feel really rejuvenated and happy after working out. I get a good burst of energy and confidence.

9. Wine glasses and shot glasses...JUST TO COLLECT..lol. I love the ones with Marilyn Monroe and Betty Boop and all that good stuff on it :)

10. Lime Green :)

Check and see if I tagged you :)
1. Southern Cinderella
2. A Goddess in Progress!
3. Tales of a Northern Belle
4. Lil Bits and Pieces of Me
5. The Swede Records
6. The Pink Chick
7. Social Climbers
8. The Shabby Tiara
9. Chic & Pink
10. According to Christa...

( I can not remember for the life of me how to actually make the links to the profiles :(

Check this out!

This is a wonderful giveaway!

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New Years Resolutions!

My 2010 New Year's Resolutions:

1. I would like to work out as much as possible. At least run and walk three times a week, if not more. Plus Zumba :)

2. I would like to eat healthier. I've heard good things about an apple a day and half a grapefruit 3 times a day. Maybe I should try those out.

3. I would like to find a job. It needs to be just something little, so I still have time to pass all my classes and enjoy college life.

4. I would like to dress pretty and use up my shoe collection as much as possible. No more just getting up and throwing a t-shirt and jeans on. I have too many cute clothes and too many nice shoes to not strut my stuff, even if it is just to go to class. This includes make-up!

5. I want to start going back to church. I'm currently working on this and hopefully starting back Sunday. :)

My day and Sports bra advice!

For starters, I would like to thank Heather at A Goddess in Progress! for my lovely header! I absolutely LOVE it!!!

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Today was my first day back to school. I was soo nervous that I was going to end up with bad classes and not nice people, but it seems that I did a good job with my schedule. Here's the sum up of my day:
-Woke up, fought static, froze to the car, had to park a mile away, froze getting into the building(wearing yoga pants and a tshirt).
-Zumba :) All I can say was AMAZING. I knew I loved it when I tried it out, but I had those steps down pat today. I was pretty good at staying on beat. I think the practice classes helped. Me and the bestie kicked booties in that class. Sadly I only have it on Monday and Wednesday so I have to wait forever before another class. :(
-Then I have an hour between Zumba and my next class. Perfect amount of time to chill in my moms office and get all prettyful :)
-Then I went to English Comp, which is quite wierd because I know most of my teachers by first names due to them working with my mom. She picked on me and told everybody I broke the copier and I told her it was fixxed but apparently she came back in at 5 today and the copier had broken again around 1:30. GRR!
-Lunch, nothing special
-And then the most dreaded class of all, Speech. I'm super shy and then my class is with all my soccer player friends. ugh..and yet again the teacher loved to use me as an example. She picked on me a lot. Maybe she will bring me out of some of my shyness.
-After class I went back to the gym and walked and ran with my other bestie and then we worked out on some machines. Seeing as how im sore now and the machine said I burned lot's of calories, I'm extremely happy!

Now, I need your help. Sports Bras seem to be soooo exspensive and if I'm going to pay big money for one, I would like a good one. So does anybody have any advice about a non-exspensive really good sports bra. I really need a good one because running today was hurting so bad, which isn't goot at all :(

Some more pics:

Through Him all things are possible

Yesterday I went with my parents to Augusta to meet my sister half way from her town in NC. We had car trouble on the way back, which added an excess amount of my thinking. I tried to sleep most of the way there, because I knew it would be hard dropping the kids back off to not be able to see the much throughout the year. Last year we only saw them a little bit in the summer and a few weekends out of the year and the half of their Christmas break their father did not have them. I believe we also had them for their spring break. Sunday when we picked them up he had a paper ready for us to take back to my sister. We knew he had it, because he had called her and said that she "better" sign it within two weeks or he was taking her back to court. He wants the kids to travel from Goldsboro, NC to Jacksonville, FL every other weekend. He expects my sister to meet him half way. My siste tried to work out a deal with him where he gets them every 3rd weekend of the monthe and a few weeks out of the summer plus their swapped holidays. He wants them pretty much ever school holiday and much more, so I figure I probably wont see the kids much this year. It hurts a lot when they were once an everyday part of your life. It feels like someone has taken my kids from me. It sucks. The little boy even showed up with a skent face, shoulder, and leg. Apparently his daddy didnt feel the need to call his mom and tell him that he got into a motorcycle accident. It made me really mad. And he sat there and lied to our faces saying that L had on one of those helmets that only covers the top of his head when he had the accident and they had to get him a full face mask after the wreck. Well the kids finally blurted out last night when we were telling his mom that L never even had a helmet on at all. WTF? Who puts a 9 year old on a motorcycle to drive by himself without some kind of armor. I was highly upset.

So when we dropped them off yesterday I had tears in my eyes and L cried and C was a big girl but she came calling us last night after her Mom and everybody went to bed to say she missed us and loved us.

I don't know if that's what caused all of my thinking, but a lot has been on my mind now. I fought tears so much on the ride back yesterday and sitting on the side of interstate for a while didnt help much either.

Here are many of my thoughts at the moment:

1. I feel like I have completely abandoned God and church and my religion. Of course I still believe, but I feel as though I'm not being a good Christian, because I can't find a good church to go to. It really is gettin at me. I even feel as though I don't actually know how to pray and that hurts a lot. I would like for my mom and me to get back into going to church. I have one problem though, the church I would like to go to has become a VERY BIG church and I don't do well in crowds and the rest of the churches are really small, but we have tried them out and they are just not the same. And the only church I have ever really loved is an hour away where my grandparents live. I often believe it would be worth it to make the trip every Sunday morning to go to church with my granparents at the church I feel at home at and then have lunch with my grandparents after and then come home. If thats what needs to be done to get me going back to church, then I think thats what needs to be done. I miss it so much!

2. I am easily pursued and easily enfluenced. With this I feel like I am doing things for others instead of myself. I feel like somewhere along the way I have lost the real ME. I do things for others a not for myself. Yes, I enjoy partying and hanging with friends, but at some point in time I feel like I am doing it to much. I've always been the stay at home, watch a movie atleast one night out of the weekend and I've often loved to make meals for everyone before they get home and bake in my free time, but since I've introduced my best friends to my soccer friends all she wants to do is go over there all the time and i'm her ride. And I believe when I say she wants to go over there for the "wrong" reasons, you know what I mean. I don't really want to go to far into that one and get upset more, but I'm afraid they will end up believing I am like her and I'm not. They are all my friends, but there is only one guy there that I would even have a relationship with and I doubt that will happen, because he leaves at the end of the semester. I care about him a lot and we've talked a lot during the break, but I feel like it's a lost cause.

3. I've always thought of myself to be the settle down type, but theres no way I can do that if I can't even find a guy. I want a real relationship. I want someone to share families with and holidays with. I want someone to love and someone to grow old with, but I am hard on myself because I don't feel like I will ever find that person. And I feel as though I'm spending all my time and giving my heart to a guy that won't be there anymore after a few months, instead of just going out there and trying to find someone that will. I'm also really shy and if a guy does try to talk to me, I don't know how to respond back. I feel like finding love is just a endless cause.

4. And last but certainly not least, I'm scared that when I do find Mr. Right that I won't be able to have children. I'm scared that due to my Endometreosis and my IBS and Chrones disease and my slow colon that I will not be able to have kids. I've been told that it should be okay, but I know what I have read and what people have told me and not a day goes by that I don't think what if I can't have a baby. I've always been one of those girls that has wanted a baby. I've always oohed and ahhed at babies and just sat there and hoped and wished that one day I would be able to have my own little bundle of joy. My family members have even had conversations with my mom or my sister telling them that they pray that I am able to have them one day because they know how much I want one. But I know if it's meant to be God will find a way. I will never lose hope in him, because through Him all things are possible.


On to a better note. I had a photo shoot the other day and here are some pics from it :)

I hate the look on my face in that one, but everybody seems to love it because it shows my crazy personality..hmmm
I will not be using this one for my portfolio because of it showing my tattoo but the girl that took my pics loved my tat and had to take a pic.

It was really cold and windy!
I think this is a really cute pic regardless of the one thing across my face..lol

I will post some more in my next post..if I forget I give you permission to fuss at me :)

Big Lot's After Season Sales :)

Sadly, I didn't get a chance to get pictures of the first set of goodies I brought, but the other night I went to Big Lot's and they also had a lot of goodies for 50%-80% off. I was soo excited. We waited on some stuff, but there was some stuff they only had a few of and we just couldn't leave the store without. Here are some of our goodies:



These I thought would be really cute to put up for my tree one day :) Along with the next ones!

I loved these!!!

My mom wanted these, even though she had already brought some the other day, because each year it seems as though our family keeps increasing!

Layout dillemma :(

I have this really good post I want to write and another one on some deals I recieved this past weekend, but I don't want to post them until I change my layout. It's not longer Christmas and even past new years. I need to get rid of the Christmas layout, but I have searched and searched and I can not for the life of me find a really cute layout thats, well ME! Can anybody point me in the direction of any good ones or help me in finding a really cute layout?