Trying times..

I know I have been MIA!! I'm sooo, so sorry! I've been finishing up classes and midterms and have finally started off my spring break after a challenging day today!

Church was amazing this morning. It was our homecoming. We have some amazing singers and I loved being able to strt church early and worship with all of our wonderful singers. We also had a guess preacher who I loved. He was amazing. Very active, and much like my preacher. He preached about your conscious and stuff like drinking, etc. And he preached to the young people about not following in others footsteps. I will be going to the beach with friends this weekend and I took in what he said. I am going to have a good time because this could be my only spring break adventure that I ever get to go on and I want to make it the best, but I don't want to do stuff that I will regret, so hears to me having fun, but behaving!

Then, tonight I was faced with some challenging circumstances. I had discussions for two different online classes, neither having to do with religion. One being History and the other being my Critical Thinking Class. One class wanted to me to find a part in a trial about evolution that I liked. Hello, I like no part of it. I believe in the bible not evolution. And then I had to post another one for that same class on my beliefs in the bible or evolution and I have to say I was one of the very few that believed in the bible. It hurt. Then I went on to my next class and was shocked to find that this teacher wanted me to point out a religion and what people thought was unethical about it. If you were actually reading the instructions you would know a little more of why I was upset. Then I get to reading and could not believe how many non-Christians I had in my class and was even more hurt by the bashing of the Christian name. Of course I am a Christian, but I am Pentecostal Holiness (Church of God) and I stated what people thought were negative about being a Christian and about being Church of God, but I help my head up as I typed about the truth behind my religion. I said what I needed to say and I got out of there. People can judge me, but I only care about being judged by one person and that is God.

Here is a little something a friend posted on facebook right after I got through with discussions:

I thought you would like to watch. Please watch it all the way through. There's no pretty pictures, but I promise there is sarcasm and a meaning behind it. It has a great point. And it is INTENSE!



Well I'm not sure I will post again until after I get back from Spring Break, but I definately wanted to drop in and let everyone know I wasn't missing and write about my church and experience with school for me to look back at whenever times get rough.

WILW!!!

I'm linking up with Jamie for What I'm Loving Wednesday!



I'm loving that I have yummy green velvet cupcakes cooking in my oven right now and people here to eat them so I don't have to eat more than I am allowed :)

I'm loving that this little booger is back to see me.


I'm loving that I have the best nieces and nephews in the world. (I may be a little biased)

I'm loving the convo my 3 year old niece had with me today.
She said: "Oh no, I left my money in my car seat in the car"
I said: "It's okay, it will be there when you get back in the car"
Her: "But I was giving it to you"

It melted my heart. The last time the girls were here I was finding change and putting it in my big bucket and calling it my spring break funds and the girls decided they wanted to help and thought it was fun all weekend to find change in random places (car, ground, etc) to give me. So apparently little minds never forget because she's been saving me money..AWW. and Her Mama said that she dropped one in the floor on the way here last night and cried and she didn't know why, but now she knows. I thought it was the cutest thing ever.

I'm loving that I get to go to the dinner theater tomorrow night with my friends, for FREE. We get to dress up and eat yummy yummy food and while we are eating our college is putting on a murder mystery for us..hmm..should be interesting. I can't wait!

I'm loving that I get to go to the beach in 13 days and spring break begins in 9 days..yay!!!

I'm loving lots of movies: Burlesque, Life as We know it, Pure Country 2: The Gift, Love and Other Drugs, and the list goes on.

I'm loving my family and friends ♥

What are you loving?

Update on Sister...

I'm pretty sad right now. I thank everyone for praying for my sister that all the tests came back in her favor and that the baby would be alright, but we found out today that she lost the baby. Please keep her family in your prayers. She has an 11 and 9 year old that are taking this pretty hard. The little boy thinks it's his fault because he said he didn't want a baby because he wanted to be the baby and now is very upset because he really did want a baby and he was just saying that. They are all taking this pretty hard. I'm not sure if they are going to continue to try or just give up. She has 2 from a previous marriage and he has one and they've tried for over a year to have a baby and she was just starting to give up due to endometreosis and the doctors couldnt find a reason why she wasn't getting pregnant and then now this happened so I'm not sure what they will do. Please keep them in your prayers!

How to be Godly Women?

I've been doing a lot of thinking recently. I absolutely love reading everybodies blogs and quite a few of you have a close group of Christian friends. I see how all of you get to go out to eat together and have a great time and still live an amazing Christian lifestyle.

I've always been a Christian, but there's no denying that I did not live the right lifestyle for a while. Growing up I went to many churches in my hometown, but none of the were home like the one I went to for the first half of my life an hour away in the town where my mom was raised. We would always travel to church on Sundays. Last year around March I asked my Mom to go back to that church. That is my home church. We went every Sunday for a while and then I went to live with my sister for the summer and backslid. I've spent the past couple of months trying to get back to the place that I was before. This time I think I am even stronger than I was before.

Not only is God working in my life, but he has helped me to work in other people's lives as well. One of my friends had also backslid and hadn't been to church in almost a year and she has been going back to her church for the past month. We always text each other after our services and discuss what our sermons were about. Then, another one of my best friends has stopped going to her church due to work and the fact that they swapped preachers and it doesn't feel like home to her, so she went to my church with me this past Sunday and really enjoyed it.

Our sermon last Sunday along with our girl talk with my mom that afternoon has really got me thinking a lot. As I mentioned before a lot of you ladies have a close group of Christian women that y'all go out to eat and to movies and have little gatherings together with. I want that. I want my friends to be strong Godly women and for us to help each other in every way we can. There is a group of women at my church in the 30s and 40s and they grew up going to church together and they have always had that strong bond and been a great group of Christian women. I want that but I'm not sure how to get it.

It's really hard when in todays society it is hard to be a girl of my age and have friends with a Christian lifestyle. Sadly enough living a Godly life is looked down upon by many who are too busy partying and having a good time. I will not let this pull me down. Not to mention, I hadn't been to my church in years and many of the older teenagers have no clue who I am. I live an hour away so it's hard to go to Sunday night services and Wednesday night events. However, at my church there is a big age split. Most of the women are 30 or so and the rest are young girl between 14 an 17. There is only one girl that goes to church regularly who is my age. She is either already 20 or will be twenty soon. We are pretty good friends, but it is like them, them, and us. I am actually closer to the 30 year old ladies than I am to the teenagers, minus my one friend because she is also closer to the ladies.

So ladies I ask you how did your groups start off? How can we be strong Godly women?

ABC's of me :)

I thought I would fill y'all in on a little about me..hope you all enjoy!!!


(A) Age: 19, will be 20 in less than a month and I am so scard to no longer be considered a "teenager" but excited at the same time because I feel more like I'm 20 than 19.
(B) Bed Size: Queen and comfy
(C) Chore You Hate: laundry...I hate folding and putting the clothes away :(
(D) Dogs?: I have Roscoe Mcneal Jenkins who is a cocker spanial and Ally Cat who is actually a dog who thinks she's a cat..she's a miniature rat terrier
(E) Essential Start Your Day Item: coffee or cappucino (it used to be soda, but I don't drink soda anymore except on special occasions
(F) Favorite Color: Lime Green
(G) Gold or Silver? I've always liked gold, but a lot of my jewelry is silver so it's hard to where gold...my class ring was gold but I lost the diamond out of it :(
(H) Height: 5’3”
(I) Instruments You Play: Tuba
(J) Job Title: Student
(K) Kids: not for a long while, no man in my life to even be thinking about that
(L) Live: Albany, GA
(M) Mom's Name: Gail
(N) Nicknames:Carebear, Car, Cariebaby, Truck, Quay Quay(old highschool band nickname which was short for Shay Shay Boniqua Shaquineta Nicole)
(O) Overnight Hospital Stays? Childrens hospital when I was a baby, childrens hospital in like 9th grade for 2 wks, and overnight with my dad when he was in the hospital
(P) Pet Peeve: littering, smacking, rudeness to waiters
(Q) Quote from a Movie: "And we know a cow when we see one" - Burlesque
(R) Right or Left Handed? Right
(S) Siblings: sister-11 years older than me, brother-9 yrs older
(T) Time You Wake Up? wheneve I feel like it
(U) Underwear: boy shorts
(V) Vegetable You Dislike: mushrooms
(W) What Makes You Run Late: Reading Blogs :)
(X) X-Rays You've Had Done:everywhere...i've broken almost everything in my life and had tons and tons of xrays
(Y) Yummy Food You Make: hmm y niece and nephew love aunt carie's pizza and my thai it chicken, parents love my chicken and dumplings, and all of the guys love my red velvet cake and cheesecakes :)
(Z) Zoo, Favorite Animal: Monkeys and Zebras

Please, please pray!!!

Please keep my sister in your prayers! Please pray for a miracle! They are afraid that she is going to lose the baby!

Update: She has been spotting today. Her doctor was not there Monday so they did not check her then, but when she went back today after having some spotting they found that she has a blood spot in the sack. They said this could mean that the baby could abort itself in the next month or so or it could be perfectly fine. They also found that she has a huge cyst on her right ovary! Please please pray that the baby is fine and that both baby and my sister are healthy.

The plan He has for me!

I have been praying and praying that one day soon I will meet a good man. I pray for my future husband-to-be everyday.

I've been single for a whole year, by choice. I had experienced so many bad guys and the last one had completely done it for me for a while. I decided that I would take a break from dating and try to figure out me and what I wanted!

I ended up learning a lot about myself and what I wanted. I learned that I wanted a good man. I wanted a man that understood me. A man that would allow me enough space to have girls nights every now and then and to also have time with my mom. I need a man to understand the importance of my family. I need a man to trust me and I need to trust him back. I need a caring, funny, and loving man. I need a Godly man atleast someone who is willing to grow closer to God with me. I want someone to accept me for me and not want me to change. What you see is what you get! I'm not the prettiest, smallest, skinniest, tallest, and I'm definately not tan at all, but I want to be accepted for these things. I don't want to always feel like I need to become something I'm not to keep my man. I need this man to understand that I am going to school to become something of myself and I also need my man to not base a relationship off of sex. Sex does not exual a relationship and that is something so many people forget while dating. Is all of this so hard to ask for?

Now that I'm ready to start looking again, I've learned that I'm not the only one who has been worrying about my love life. Apparently 3 different coworkers of my moms including her boss have asked her in the past two weeks if I dated. Keep in mind this is the same college that I go to and two of these were my teachers in past semesters. And if that's not bad enough my 12 year old niece loves to ask me everytime she calls if I am dating anyone yet and informs me that I am getting old and need to hurry up and get married.

I promise I am in no rush, but finding my someone would be amazing! I will just keep praying for my special someone because I know God has a plan for me and when the time is right he will put the right person in my life! :)

Prayer Requests and Praises!!

I decided to link up with A Love Worth Waiting For for her Prayer Requests and Praises edition today!

~I want to praise Him for the wonderful news I found out Saturday. Saturday morning around 9:30 am I got a text on my phone from my sister(really it was sent at 6:23 am). It was a picture of a stick that said clear as day PREGNANT! I was so suprised I jumped straight out of bed and ran to where my mom was at in the house and said "Is it true?" I wasn't sure I was dreaming or not. My sister and her husband had been trying for over a year and the doctors ran somany tests and couldn't find out why my sister wasn't getting pregnant. They were referring them to an InVetro (sp?) doctor and my sister was deciding to just give up and further her education instead. She said she already had 2 children from a previous marriage (although she had messed up and didn't get to be in their lives growing up the way she wanted to be and wanted a second chance) and her husband had a little girl from a previous marriage. They both wanted a chance to have a baby together, but were coming to the conclusion that it was not God's plan for them. We all have prayed and prayed that she just got this one chance to have this baby. She's wanted it so much and I've seen her go through months thinking she could be pregnant and then get let down just as quick. This is a very high risk pregnancy. The doctor believed that she has lost a few babies in the past few months that she has been trying. She really needs lots of prayers for a healthy pregnancy and for a healthy baby. Please keep her in your prayers!

~My Aunt Wanda needs lots of prayers. About two weeks ago she was watching her grandaughter and tripped over the baby gate. She busted her mouth and got bruised up really bad. However, a few days later instead of getting better, her mouth wouldn't stop bleeding and she started getting bruises everywhere in places she didn't even fall, along with these pin like purple dots all over her. She went to school planning to teach, but went to the nurse before class. The nurse said she needed to go to the doctor immediately and my aunt made an appointment for after lunch. The principal ended up making her go home until her appointment. The doctors ran tests and sent her home and within a few hours the doctors office was calling telling her to go to the hospital immediately. Her blood platelets were supposed to be 150,000 but they were only 900. The gave her four bags of plasma while she was at the hospital and ran lots of tests and sent them off including bone marrow. Her levels are finally back up, but are slowly declining again. The doctor is sending her to a specialist at Emory because he says he has never seen a case like this in his life. They are leaning torwards Leukemia still. Please, Please keep her in your prayers.

~My grandaddy has been very sick and has not been himself at all. He is always lively, but recently he's been very down and can't seem to shake the Flu that he has been battling. We are not sure if he is just worried about what is going on with my aunt, his baby daughter, or actually sick. The doctors have also been discussing putting him on dialysis because his kidney's have been causing him trouble. Please pray for him?

~Please pray for my brothers marriage. It seems that everytime things get to going good for them that something comes along to cause drama. He is going back over seas the week after Easter and his wife and kids are coming to stay with us. His wife loved my church when we took her before and I am praying that we can get her and the kids involved with the church while they are here.

~Please pray that I keep drawing myself closer to God. I don't want to backslide again. I want to live a Godly life.

~Please pray that I get accepted into the nursing program. I want this more than anything and I know I can do it!

Thanks for listening to my prayer requests and praises and feel free to comment with anything you would like to add to my prayer requests and praises :)

Me weekend :)

Friday night I went out to eat with the girs. I sadly didn't get any pictures. After going from resturaunt to resturaunt with each one having long waits due to the Mardi Gras events going on this weekend, we ended up eating at Mellow Mushroom. It was pretty good but definately fattening. Especially when I had just broken my plateau that morning.

Saturday I woke up to a test from my sister. And Guess what?????

I'm going to be an aunt again. My sister is finally having a baby after trying for over a year and a half. I am soo happy for her! I know she has a ten year old and a 12 year old, but they were basically raised by my mom and she turned her life around and now is remarried and although her husband also has a little girl, they wanted a baby together and she wanted a chance to have a baby and raise it right. She went to the doctor and they ran tests and she is definately pregnant. They believe she is five weeks, but she is already gaining more weight than she should so they are going to examine and do an ultrasound and stuff next week. Right now we are just praying for a healthy baby and for her to have a healthy pregnancy.

Saturday afternoon I went shopping with my bff and then met up with my other bestie and headed to the Mardi Gras festival. It was fun considering the fact that I got mooned by some guys riding down the road when we were on the way back to the car..yuck!






Sunday morning I went to church. I didn't think my Mom was planning on going because it's an hour away and our church is down a dirt road and it had been storming and our preacher was also sick with pneumonia so we knew there would be a guest preacher. Anyways, from the time we walked in and the music started the church was filled with the Holy Spirit. It was amazing. I could not be still for the life of me. The preacher came to preach on another topic, but due to a woman or a few women in our church committing aldultery (which our preacher has preached about before) he knew that he was there to speak on a different matter. He acted out the stories he was telling us and really got all into it. Then he went on to discuss being saved and how he had a 72 year old man give a testimony about how when he was a young man his girlfriend had asked him to go to church and he went but for the wrong reasons. He went to sit and hold her hand and be able to have a few extra hours with her. He said throughout that church service that the Holy Spirit had spoke to him and when the preacher called everybody who had been spoke to and wanted to be saved to come to the front that he did not move. He said that today wasnt the day. He said that as he bowed his head and closed his eyes while everybody prayed he all of a sudden felt a hand on his back and the preacher had come down to him and said that the he wanted to help him get saved. The man said that he said no and made a dash for the door. He said that from that day forward he had spent his whole life trying to be a man of God but that he was empty because that day that he walked out of those church doors and turned his back on God. The Holy Spirit had been speaking to me (among others) the whole church service and when we all had our heads bowed, he asked those of us who wanted to be saved to just lift a hand for God to see and I did. Then he asked all of us to repeat a prayer after him, he asked the whole congregation to also repeat this prayer, because he knew that it would be easier for the ones wanting to be saved to say it along with everybody else. I repeated after him. After saying the prayer, he asked for everybody to stand and immediately after asked all of those who had asked to be saved to come stand on the stage and be acknoledged. This was the hardest thing for me. But I knew I had to do it. My whole body was trembling all over and I knew I couldnt just stand in the pews. I made my way to the front along with everybody else and the look out into the audience and both my mother and my grandparents realized what I had done was amazing. They were filled with tears. My legs trembled and my hands trembled and the preacher knew it as he shook my hand and the hands of each one of the people that had asked to be saved. I wasn't sure I could make it back to my seat. I was shaking from head to toe, not from nervousness or being cold, but from being filled with the Holy Spirit. As I stood next to my Mom as the church service ended, I felt a sense of Happiness and Joy and Holeness that I had never felt before. As soon as the service ended up my mom took me in her arms and hugged me with tears all down her face and my Grandma was beating it past the people to get to me to hug me with tears streaming down her face. Sunday, March 6 is a day that I will never forget.

The rest of the day I spent time with the Grandparents and my Mom and we went and visited my aunt who has been sick. She is supposed to be going to Emory to see another doctor because the doctors here have never seen anything like her case. Please keep her in your prayers! They are still leaning torwards a form of Leukemia :(



I hope all of you had a wonderful weekend :)

I got Saved today :)

I got Saved today. There is no feeling like the feeling I have had today.

I'm going to leave this post at that, as a way to mark the day and also because words cannot describe how I feel and how that service went this morning.