cute going out outfit

cute going out outfit by softballerchik1 featuring a cropped jacket

Current Elliott racerback tank
£98 - harrods.com

Versace cropped jacket
$3,550 - stylebop.com

High waisted skinny jeans
$80 - topshop.com

Platform high heels
£88 - office.co.uk

Inge Christopher leather handbag
$250 - endless.com

Cowboy take me away...

I'm sorry I haven't been a great blogger lately. I have been really sick.

I have been battling a severe cold. I have been sneezing, coughing, and sniffling like crazy these past few days. And on top of that I have had a severe headache on one side of my head due to my wreck friday night that makes me feel like I have a time bomb in my head, especially when I look down. Tick, tick, tick, throb, throb, throb..ugh

So ladies, I am taking in some much needed rest..I'm not to happy about my slacking off going to the gym lately, don't get me wrong I did go yesterday and I gave it my all, but I woke up today sicker than I was the past few days so :(

Anyways, back to resting I go, but if you want some really good posts go back and read my last 3 posts :)

The dating game...

I have been doing a lot of thinking and changing lately. Most of you know that over a year ago I decided to change my life around. I did this for me. However, throughout the past year I have made many steps in the right direction, but I have also gone back and forth into the wrong directions. I have been able to be easily pursuaded in many things, but however I have been able to stand strong on many, many things. For instance, I have learned to say no to going to parties and drinking. I also have been able to stay single and abstinent for a long, long time. However, after watching the four videos that I posted in this post, I have learned that although I have not been in a relationship, I have been looking and this preacher taught me that in order to find the person I'm meant to be with that I need to be the person that the person I want to be with is looking for. Tricky right?

Well, am I the person that the person I'm looking for is looking for? At this point in my life, although I am strong and although I am headed in the direction I want to be in and as much as I hate to say it I am actually not there yet. The man I am looking for would probably still not want to be with a girl like me, YET. But I am working on making myself into THAT girl that he would want to be with.

So this preacher challenged me to not date anyone for another whole year just to work on myself and make myself into the person that the person I am looking for wants to be with. I'm not sure if I should accept this challenge because I have gone so long already without being in a relationship, but I also am using that as my backbone to actually do this. That meaning that I have gone this long without being in a relationship so what is another year of singleness going to harm especially if it means that something great could come out of this.

Like the preacher in the video states "This is not a sacrifice, but an Investment".

So should I go for this whole year thing or just keep working on myself and when the time is right go back to dating?

Hoo Are You?

I'm linking up with Night Owl Crafting for Hoo Are You? Hope you enjoy :)

1. Do you exercise regularly and what do you do?
I surely do, 6 days of the week. I do Spinning, Zumba, Lifting, and Elliptical :)


(My fav. spinning instructor and the facility I use..This woman is all over the internet and all over the country but is from our gym :) Barbara Hoots you should check her out and see if she's traveling to a place near you soon)

2. Do you have any weird sleeping habits?
I go to sleep as soon as my head hits the pillow, literally. However I will only sleep under the sheets in my own bed which I even rarely do there. I always sleep on top of the comforter and cover up with blankets. I also go to sleep with atleast one foot out from under the blanket because I don't want to be too hot or too cold.

" Blanket on, too hot. Blanket off, too cold.
One leg out, perfect, until the demon from Paranormal Activity grabs it..."


3. How often do you vacuum?
My house is mainly tile and wood, but the bedrooms are carpet. I vaccuum maybe ever other week because two of the bedrooms dont even get visited often. However, I have to sweep and MOP a lot!!




4.Do you accessorize and if so what is your favorite thing to accessorize with?
Of course I do, I love to accessorize with rings or big nechlaces! I love big jewelry!! Well except when I'm going to church, then I tone it down some with a simple pair of earring and a small cute nechlace. I also love scarves and headbands during the winter, but my FAVORITE accessory is my SHOES!!



5. What is your favorite drink during the summertime?
I absolutely love Strawberry Lemonade..yum!!! And peach iced tea is right behind that!!




I'm looking forward to finding out about all of you.


Also all single or dating individuals that have been looking for "mister right" should read my previous post and go to the link and watch the episodes (ALL four of them). You will have an amazing persepective on Love, Sex, and Dating!! It is truely powerful. Check it out here!

If you are single or dating..

Please watch all four of the episodes. All I can say is WOW!!


http://www.buckheadchurch.org/messages/the-new-rules-for-love-sex-and-dating


Dont let your past destroy your present!


Are you the person that the man you want to be with would want to be with?


You must watch!!

Miscellany Monday

1. I was leaving the gym Friday night headed to meet the parents for supper when this girl came flying out of a resturaunt parking lot and never looked. I tried to dodge her, but she still ended up getting me passenger door, brand new tire/rim, and my back fender :( Not to mention I have had a massive headache to where I can not look down without my head throbbing on the left side along with really sore shoulders.

2. I did some much needed fall cleaning this weekend. I have so many boxes of stuff to get rid of.

3. I'm addicted to pinterest and can't wait for fall so that I can try out all of these cue outfits I have pinned.

4. I'm making some awesome changes in my life.

5. When I woke up this morning, I asked myself, "What is life about?" I found the answer in my room. the fan said, "Be cool." The roof said, "Aim high." The window said, "See the world!" The clock said, "Every minute is precious." The mirror said, "Reflect before you act." The calendar said, "Be up to date." The door said, "Push hard for your goals." The floor said, "Kneel Down and Pray".~

6. "Don't compare your love story to those you watch in movies. They are written by scriptwriters, yours is written by God."

7.

8. I also started a scripture journal last night. I feel like this will help me to learn my scriptures and also be able to keep up with certain phases of my life.

9. I finally got approved for a loan last week so school is officially a go again!

10. I went flea market shopping Saturday and found the cutest brand new never been worn brown heels. I had to get them. They were only five dollars :)

11. I saw Soul Surfer back when it was out in the movies, but I wanted my grandma to see it so after church yesterday we watched Soul Surfer and it made me cry just as much as it did the first time I saw it. I absolutely love that movie and it makes me think so much.

12. I'm having a hard time dealing with the fact that I am growing apart from my two best friends. One is more involved with her boyfriend and is heading off to college this week and the other has started hanging out with other people that I refuse to hang with. She is hanging with people with lives full of drinking and drugs. She also is starting at the same college as my other bestfriend, but will still be living here. However I don't see myself hanging with her as much because I do not want to be involved in that type of lifestyle. I've had a hard road getting to where I need to be. I finally have my head on straight and I am working on my life with God. I'm trying to stay friends with her because I don't want to turn my back when I can help her, but I also don't want her to pull me down either.


Well this has been a whole bunch of randomness, but that's why is called Misc. Monday, right? So how was your weekend?

P.S. If you didn't catch my last post, I did get my hair cut and dyed. Click here to see what I did.

New hair :)

Before:
After:

It doesn't look like much of a difference but I promise it is. Everyone has noticed and loves it :)

Wee Bit Wednesday &&& Help!!!!!

{one} what was one thing that you valued when you were a kid?
My granny..she was my best friend and I spent much of my time with her. She kept our family together (all of her kids and grandkids). We would all have dinner at her house and I always stayed there after school. Saturday or Sunday we would all meet there at lunch for a chili or something cooked in the crockpot day. We also spent a lot of time at the lake or beach. I really miss her.

{two} what was your favorite (+ lease favorite) subject in school?
My favoriter was probably math or english and my least was history...bleh

{three} do you remember your first love?
Yes, he chased me around the playground and tackled me and kissed me and then he got in trouble by the teacher.

{four} what one pet would you love to have?
hmm a monkey

{five} would you rather live in the country or in the city?
I've always lived in the country and always love it, but it's hard to dress up and look cute around here without being looked at like your funny so I really think I should live in the country near a big city that way I can have my cake (country life) and eat it to (go to the city so I can dress up).

{six} what do you love about blogging?
I love all of the people I've met :)

{seven} what is the first website you visit everyday?
Facebook..lol

{eight} will you or have you joined google+?
I don’t know. I don’t even know what it is.


{nine} what is your favorite scent of candle/air freshener?!
I love seasonal scents, like the fresh baked stuff. I also love anything tropical.

{ten} how would you describe your style?
Hmm, I am one of those people that likes a lot of different styles. I like a challenge and I love pairing stuff up. I love big jewelry!!

P.S. I decided that I would go ahead and attach my other post for today with this so I wouldn't have to post 2 posts and drive everybody crazy...please help me choose the changes for my hair :)

With all of the new changes happening in my life, I decided that a hairstyle change is in the mix also. My hair has gotten pretty long since I have posted pics on here.

My hair is actually even longer than this, but this is one of the last pictures I took :(


I have no clue who that chik is but I want her hair..what do you think? Will it look okay on me?

Next, I've been trying to decide between some of these colors and I need some help..what do you suggest...










So what do you think? Will the hairstyle work for me and what color would you suggest for me?

I'm back...Woohoo :)

It feels like ages since I have been on here. I have missed everybody so much. I skimmed through a lot of y'alls blogs last night and so much has been happening in them that I have missed.

Here is what has been going on with me:

~I've been taking summer classes so I could start at my new University in the fall as a junior. I passed all of them so hello new school.
~I've changed my major to Social Work and am so-so happy about it.
~I recieved the IV-E Child Welfare grant from GA only to have the Feds suspend it from GA for a while, so I am currently trying to figure out how to pay for school.
~My brother was overseas for three months and his wife and kids stayed with me, then he came back and they all stayed with me. I finally have my house back to well, myself and my parents.
~I have been on a weightloss journey to be more happy with myself. I've fallen in love with spinning and everybody already knew I was in love with Zumba. I workout 6 days a week now. I've lost almost 20 lbs so far :)
~I still don't have a boyfriend, but I'll just keep praying for my mister right.
~I through my niece an awesome tea party for her birthday. The kids and adults loved it!!

Well thats about all that's been going on in my life, what has been going on in yours?

I'm alive, I promise!!!

I'm sorry to have been MIA and kept so many people worrying! I am okay and just have been busy with finals and figuring out what to do next with school and everything.

I am happy to say that I have found a college close to home that offers the major I have been looking for. I will start in the fall and graduate in 2013 with my Social Work degree :) I am sooo excited!! The school is only an hour away in the town that my family lives in and where I go to church!!! Doesn't that sound like a plus?

I also have been kicking booty with my sister in law at the gym and eating right trying to lose weight. I have been doing Zumba and Spinning and am planning to start training for a 5k, but havent decided if I actually want to run my first one or walk. Hello, this girl right here has bad knees..what do you suggest?

We also had to send my brother overseas the Wednesday before Bin Laden was captured. We have recently discovered that he was not far from where this took place and that he had some part in the capture and killing of Bin Laden. From what we understand from where he keeps telling us to watch the news and from the little bit he has told us is that his plane played a big part in this. He said the two planes we kept seeing take off on the news were his planes. He said it is bad over there and during church yesterday he messaged my sister in law and was asking her to please stand in for him because he needed lots of prayers in the next few weeks! He has been really worked up this time and we have never seen him like this all of the times he has been over. Please keep him in your prayers!

As for me, I have company for the next few months. My sister in law, niece, and nephew are staying with us until my brother comes home, so I have been busy, busy! I also am getting ready to take some summer classes and finish up at the college I am currently at. Many people thought I might have left my blog or something because I had a new man in my life, but I'm sorry to say that I am still praying for mister right to come along.

Soo, now that you have caught up with me, how has everyone else been?

You are forever in my life!

Isn't it funny how life has to knock you to your knees, before you realize you should have been there praying all along.

Life is just so overwhelming, but I won't lose hope!

*When you are down to nothing, God is up to something!*

I thought I had finally found the right path. I thought I was yet again making some progress.

I sat in church Sunday morning and heard a sermon that meant a lot to me. It reminded me that I am covered in the blood of Jesus. The devil can try but he can not touch me.

"I know the plans I have for you, plans to bring you prosperity and not disaster, plans to bring about the future you hope for." (Jeremiah 29:11)


God has a plan for me and apparently what I had planned for my future is not what he has planned for my future. I had been trying to get into a few different programs at my college after the my original plans fell through and was shooting for the Respiratory Care Program.

However as I set at my grandparents house after church on Sunday and after praying countless times for a sign or something to lead me down the right path, something told me that I needed to go to college at the university in my grandparents town. I wasn't sure what was going on because my grandma, grandaddy, and aunt were talking about my grandmother's daycare, but all of a sudden that popped in my head and then I thought to myself "am I needed to help with the daycare while I go to school?", "Am I supposed to go to school here so I can be involved in my church more?", or "Am I just supposed to go to school here or was that even real?".

I prayed with my aunt about my future and getting a sign and somehow or another getting to that place God wants me to be.

After filling out 5 applications to different programs last night I found a something that would keep me from getting into ever last one of them but the Respiratory Care Program. I was sure it was meant to be.

I was feeling pretty strong minus having to add more classes and not having a back-up without waiting another two semesters before I could apply to the other programs. I felt strong.

As if I didn't already know the devil was trying his best to get to me, I sat down to read my bible, which has been a little electronic bible that allows me to read what I want and look up what I want. I picked it up and began to read only for the batteries to die on me. So I said I will not let you have this one Devil, I will not allow you to keep me from moving forward. I will do this. So I remembered before Spring Break I had been doing the One Year Bible on the computer and had stopped so I pulled it up. Recently I've been having problems with my 3rd computer charger cord to where my computer shuts off if the cord comes out and the cord will not stay in. As I was trying to read the passages I could not get started past a line without it turning off. I finally told the devil that I was covered by the blood of Jesus and he might as well go somewhere else because I was going to read my bible whether I had to go get the real thing and guess what? I read a whole 6 days worth of readings which are about 6-8 short paragraphs or chapters from different books of the bible on each days. So thats a total of atleast 36 paragraphs and I didn't want to stop reading, but I couldn't hold my eyes open.

I prayed about my future and went to bed.

I felt so strong all day today but just had this feeling something else was going to come up. My mom, who I've mentioned before works at my college and has permission to talk to people and view my info, came home with bad news. I would not be able to get into the respiratory care program until next fall. I did not cry or fuss this time because I had just read Jerimiah 29:11 as my mom was pulling in the yard and posted it as my status on facebook. I did not know it but God was already telling me he had other plans. As I was sitting there after dinner I thought about the message I was given while at my Grandmas Sunday and I looked up the school and guess what? They have the major I have been wanting to do. They have Social Work. Better yet, they even have a Scholarship for students wanting to work with children. And the school is only an hour away in the town with my Grandparents, my moms family(the only family besides my immediate family that has anything to do with me), and my church. What more could a girl ask for? I pray, pray, pray that I get into this program! I want this more than anything in the world! I feel this is my calling!!!

Please keep me in your prayers and pray that I get in and everything goes okay! I want and need this more than anything!!!




P.S. A friend of mine posted this on FB today and I thought you all MUST watch:


And this is the song that has gotten me through these last few days:

"Courageous"

I am so excited that a new Sherwood movie is coming out! I'm sad that I have to wait until the end of september to watch it, but oh well it will be worth it. I live in the town that the Sherwood Church is located and the movies have been made right here in my hometown. It is so exciting for a small town. Not to mention a recent disney movie had parts of it shot here also. The Disney movie is called "The Odd Life of Timothy Green". Anyways that is a whole different movie than the one I'm here to post about. For those of you who don't know who this Sherwood group I am talking about, I am here to tell you. Sherwood put out Facing the Giants and Fireproof and guess what, they have another movie headed our way September 30th! I'm so excited. Check it out http://www.courageousthemovie.com/

What is a girl to do?

What do you do when you are in the middle of trying to figure your life out and someone comes along and wants to help make it better?

What do you do when you are not physically attracted to the person who is physically attracted to you? But yet they are charming, funny, Godly, and can sing.

What do you do when someone has all the attributes you want in a man, but appear at the wrong time without the looks you imagined them to have?

I know I sound shallow, but this is just something I need some insight on. I don't base my relationships off of looks, but aside from him being charming, funny, Godly, and having a good voice, he in no way is my type. He is punk rock when I am a city/country girl (if there ever was a mix). I've always been attracted to tall, dark haired guys and he is average redheaded (and when I say redheaded, I mean a ton of red hair and a red beard). He is nothing that I imagined myself being attracted to, but what if? What if? That's all I can ask myself.

I'm so scared of letting the man God has in store for me pass me by that I'm scared to pass him up, but yet again the question hits me, What if? What is a girl to do?

Roses and Thorns

Roses to no longer being sick (other than my typical allergies) and having a horrible hacking cough..lol

Roses to having an amazing 20th birthday Tuesday!

Roses to finally finding the perfect Easter dress after trying on more than twenty dresses.

Roses to my new blue suede shoes!

Roses to having a heart to heart with my favorite sales lady at Kohl's last night. See shopping is really therapy.

Roses to getting my tan and workout on while washing the boat that hadn't been washed in over a year. (Keep in mind this is the country so it had lots of yuckies on it from the trees)

Roses to having lots of new cute clothes thanks to the shopping spree my mommy took me on for my bday :)

Roses to possibly going to the Arena Football game tomorrow night. Go Panthers :)

Thorns to having to change my major again.

Thorns to the no-good-sucky week I've been having (minus the one good day, my Birthday).

Thorns to not being able to do what makes me happy.

Thorns to not being able to go to the lake tomorrow to celebrate my birthday, because of rain, one besties dad being in the hospital, and the other not being able to get off of work :(

Thorns to being so sleepy and sad lately!

Thorns to having a horrible backache from pulling a muscle or something while cleaning the boat.

Thorns to not being able to fnd my whole package of brand new contacts. I hate wearing glasses!

Thorns to having a big ol mess to clean up in my room. I have yet to unpack my clothes from spring break. I hate unpacking..bleh. I did unpack the clothes I wore the day I got home, so no my stinky clothes are not still laying around in a bag somewhere..haha

Thorns to having to decide whether to do a career degree program, graduate with general studies at the end of Fall, go an extra semester or overload myself in fall to graduate with my social work or psychology degree, and last but not least to decide what college to go to next :(

Another rant about school..

I'm not myself lately. I'm tired of getting my hopes up. Everytime I think I am on the right track and feel like I'm headed in the right direction something always comes along to change things. This will be the 5th time that I've had to change my major and the third time in the past month or two. I'm not happy about this one bit. I had my hopes up to be able to graduate with my social work or pshychology degree in the fall only to be told that freaking Anatomy & Physiology I was forced to take due to nursing doesn't even count as a science so I have to take two more science's on top of a packed summer class schedule and a definite packed fall schedule. My choices: go 3 more unwanted semesters only to go to another school for a few more years? go 2 more unwanted semesters and graduate with a general studies major and still have to go on to school somewhere else for a few years? apply for dental hygiene, physical therapy, cardiovascular technology, health information technology, human sevices technology, or medical laboratory technology and go to school for another year or so and graduate with a career? or just give up all together for a while and work?

I'm not sure. I wish there was an easy answer because everything about this sunject makes me want to cry. So far I am hating my twenty's because I've spent a whole day crying about my future. I'm so tired of stressing and crying about school. It is not supposed to be this stressful and everybody who has no clue about what is going on in the situation just keeps saying "It's life. It's just a phase of growing up." Excuse me, not everybody goes through this. They don't get their hopes up every time to be told they can't do what they dreamed of doing.

I wanted to be an OBGYN all my life only to take one stupid medicine that was prescribed to me for my medical issues that caused my hands to shake to wear I can't even poor a drnk into a glass without shaking like I'm on drugs or somethings wrong with me. And I absolutely hate the question "ARe you okay? Why are your hands shaking like that?" It's just what I do.

I wanted to be a sonographer only to find that after I got accepted into the program that the program had lost its accredidation so I ended up deciding not to go through with it because I would only be able to get a job in the town I've lived in my whole life. If I ever moved I would have to go back to school because my degree wouldn't transfer.

Then I decided to go to school for nursing. I decided that a midwife would be an amazing job for me and be close to the original OBGYN that I wanted to be. After retaking many classes so that they were "Nursing major happy" meaning I had to retake classes like Anatomy and Physiology because the ones I had were labeled "for healthcare" and those were not accepted in nursing. Then after two times applying to get into the nursing program and both times being denied. I just decided that I didn't have time to keep applying and getting let down. That got me to thinking if a nursing job was really meant for me. I want a husband and a family and I want to be able to attend family functions on the weekend and not always be working. I know many of you out there are nurses and I give you so much credit, but there is some reason why I did not get in twice and apparently it is not meant to be for me.

Then I decided that I would like to swap to Psychology which got me to doing research and I decided that I really wanted to graduate with a Social Work degree. Both have the same classes for a social work degree. I have a better chance of getting a job with a social work degree than with a associates in psychology so I decided the go with social work, which seemed like the right thing for me. It felt like a huge weight had been lifted off of my shoulder and that I could always swap to Psychology if I didn't like Social Work.

And then, here I am today sad, crying, hurting again because I don't know where to go from here. Mom's mad at me because everytime she brings up the subject I start crying ans telling her I just don't want to talk about it. Apparently according to her it's not the end of the world. But it is when you are tired of school already and tired of just standing still and not getting anywhere after so much hard work. And yet she now just wants to throw me into a degree when I've been telling her from the beginning: I want all or nothing and I don't just want some career that I wont be happy with. And then I also have said that I probably will never go back to school if I graduate with a career degree that automatically get's me a job after all I've been through with college so far.

Sorry for ranting to you all about school, but this is a diary to me so I have to come here and let it all out :(

Wee Bit Wednesday!!

{one} have you ever fainted?
yep, when I had my wisdom teeth taken out. I passed out in the bathroom but we don't know why..lol

{two} what is your favorite casino game?
texas hold'em..I'm not big on casino games...I was learning how to play poker with my sister, brother in law, and steven last summer, but it's been so long I don't think I remember to much about it..lol

{three} do you have a good sense of direction?
Yes, I can be asleep on the way somewhere and my parents will wake me up to tell them which way to go and I can just about tell you from the turns where we are at, but I look up just in case..lol

{four} laptop or desktop?
laptop

{five} what is your go-to hair style when having a bad hair day?
pull my hair back down the center with bobbypins

{six} do you read the newspaper on a daily basis?
nope, I watch the news a little at lunch time. Facebook usually keeps me up to date..haha...well that and my father :P

{seven} do you have a favorite celebrity chef?
Paula Dean and Rachael Ray

{eight} what tv show would you like to make a guest appearance on?
One Tree Hill

{nine} do you have satellite radio in your car?
Not in mine, but mom has it in hers and sadly I drive hers more than mine.

{ten} what was the last movie that made you cry?
Dear John, when I watched it again the other night at the grandparents..it always gets me..lol

What I'm Loving Wednesday!!

That my birthday was yesterday! I turned the big 2 0!!!!


That my bestie got me this cute hat for my bday along with a lot of other cute goodies and yumminess that I don't need! hehe oh well..its a gift :)

It says: It's my Birthday!!

My cute bday shoes I brought from Kohl's over the weekend! LOVE!!!

Escuse my bad pedicure...I was in a hurry..oops!

Forgive me for the photosession that follows..I was trying to see if 20 looks any different on me!!





Songs I'm loving!!!








I'm loving that I get to wake up to some yummy chocolate cracker barrel coffee thanks to the biffle!

I'm loving that this weekend I get to celebrate my bday with a trip to the lake. Including a picnic, fishing, tubing, boat riding, tanning, talking, having a good time, and cheesecake! Plus a hike for exercise :)

I'm loving that a huge weight has been lifted off of my shoulders and I feel like I am on the right track and doing what I am called to do :)

I'm loving that mi madre took me shopping over the weekend and I got lot's of cute outfits, the shoes above, and these cute blue suede heels by candy's :)

I'm also loving that we celebrated my church's 20th year this past Sunday. I can't believe the church and me get to celebrate our birthday's together. :)

I'm loving so, so much this week, but to save you from the boredum I will stop here. What are you loving this week?

I'm not loving that I had my hopes up for this pretty yellow dress (the color I'm loving this year) that was on the cover of the belks weekly sale catalog and when I got there to get it, it wasn't as pretty in person as it was in the pics. Now I have no clue what dress I want for Easter. What are you planning to wear?

Today is my Birthday..

I can cry if I want to!!!!


Today is the big 2 0 for me!!!


I'm not sure if I'm excited about that or what, but either way, YAY me!!!

****SIGH****

...of relief!!!

I am happy to say that after a lot of thinking and crying and praying I have come to a decision about school.

After sitting down and talking to my mom (and crying) and making list after list after list I have come to the conclusion that I would like to major in Social Work with a minor in Psychology. I would do it the other way around, but due to the fact that I can graduate with my Associates in Social Work or Psychology at the end of Fall semester and I have a better chance of getting a job with an associates in Social Work, I have decided to graduate with a Social Work degree so that I can work while going to school to become a Case Worker or a Psychologist or ahmmmhmmm...Both..lol.

I feel like a huge weight has been lifted off my shoulders. I have always had a calling to help people and when I was younger this was what I wanted to be. Except, I wanted to be an art therapist. I think this is meant for me.

I am so happy to finally be able to rest tonight without having to stress about what move to make next!

(I know this is boring to all of you, but it's a milestone for me!!)

"Hoo", What, When, and "Wear" :P

So what is a girl like me to do during Spring Break while it's raining? hmmmm....Oh, of course..Shop!!! Here are some of my new cute finds I added to my jewelry collection!!


{Does your chain hang low?}



{I'm obsessed with owls, bows, and two finger rings}


That's not all that I brought considering I did have to go buy new handy dandy black flippy floppers because some hephers stole my shoes while I was out on the beach with my friends one night..ugh! But, I'm in love with those so I had to post!!

And just because I've seen this little bad boy floating around blogs and I thought it would be fun to show everybody how true to my side of the country I am:



I promise I will make it all the way over to California one day :)

Well I didnt get in....

I knew I wasn't going to get in again, but getting that letter in the mail still really sucks. I feel like I am just wasting my time. I don't even believe that it is what I want to do anymore so why care. I really want a huge change in my life. I want a new town, but I want someone to go with me. I don't want to go alone. The bestie didn't get her letter today, but maybe she will get hers tomorrow. She said she probably isn't going to get in either, but she possibly could. She has a better GPA than me.

Honestly I felt like I have been pushed into this major after my original major's program lost it's accredidation and I believe that although I always wanted to be a Midwife that nursing is really not the thing for me. I have no clue what I want to do, but this just doesn't feel right and after 2 attempts to get into the program at my college I think it's safe to say that it just isn't meant to be.

So now what do I do?

I really want to move to Tampa where my brother lives. I want a change of scenery, preferably with a beach. There I atleast have someone I know and if my friend doesn't get into nursing program she has family that lives there also. But then, we have the dilemma of out of state tuition. I would be okay with taking a break from school, but if I mentioned taking time off from school it would be completele suicide. I honestly am at a loss and have absolutely no idea what to do. I'm beyond stressed and all I've wanted to do the past few days is cry! I'm completely lost!!!

And I really don't want to have this discussion later with my Mom because she is pushing me to go about an hour away to a college and try to get into the nursing program there. Honestly, I don't want to. Odds are I won't get in there either and I will just end up stuck at a stand still there to.

***Side-note: She just called and is already pushing the application for the other college on me!!!!***

Why do I have to be the one that doesn't know what to do with my life? And why is it such a crime to just need a break from school?

Lehhhgo ;)

I've been doing a lot of thinking and a lot of decision making. I however do believe that I could use some back-up insight on my plans!

Anyways, I have been on spring break the past week which was absolutely amazing. I will post pics as soon as the bestie gets them posted and sent to me.

Certain circustances have gotten one of my besties and me doing a lot of thinking and we have made some decisions. Due to the fact that we have both tried before to get into the nursing program at our small college and have both gotten denied and we have recently taken the test again and reapplied and should get results back next week, which we both are pretty sure that we will be denied again due to the large amount of people applying to get into the small program.

We have two choices. We can go to a college thats about an hour away and let our parents help us out with an apartment and try to juggle a job and nursing..eek! Could be what we have to do.

Or we could get a job as soon as we get our letter and take off for the summer or continue to do a few online classes and then do what we have really been wanting to do and work until we save up enough money to move to Tampa (where my brother and his family lives, but not with his family) and take online classes at the school we are going to until we can transfer to a college there and continue our classes. Or we can go ahead and graduate at the end of summer semester with a degree until we decide to go on with our educution.

It's a lot of decision making, but we both really want a change of scenery, preferable Tampa with the beach. We also both know that as long as we stay here we will depend on our parents and we need to learn to do things on our own. We also are tired of this small town drama and know that we will not be able to get away from our exes and the drama this town has until we move somewhere else, atleast for a little while. Not to mention, I don't fit in here. We love to dress up and even adding heels to an outfit on Friday nights or even wearing a dress gets you stared at the whole time. I need somewhere bigger, somewhere better where I can be myself and be accepted for who I am. I honestly believe that this is really what we need!

Do you think I am out of my mind or do you think I am on to something? What would you suggest me do?

Trying times..

I know I have been MIA!! I'm sooo, so sorry! I've been finishing up classes and midterms and have finally started off my spring break after a challenging day today!

Church was amazing this morning. It was our homecoming. We have some amazing singers and I loved being able to strt church early and worship with all of our wonderful singers. We also had a guess preacher who I loved. He was amazing. Very active, and much like my preacher. He preached about your conscious and stuff like drinking, etc. And he preached to the young people about not following in others footsteps. I will be going to the beach with friends this weekend and I took in what he said. I am going to have a good time because this could be my only spring break adventure that I ever get to go on and I want to make it the best, but I don't want to do stuff that I will regret, so hears to me having fun, but behaving!

Then, tonight I was faced with some challenging circumstances. I had discussions for two different online classes, neither having to do with religion. One being History and the other being my Critical Thinking Class. One class wanted to me to find a part in a trial about evolution that I liked. Hello, I like no part of it. I believe in the bible not evolution. And then I had to post another one for that same class on my beliefs in the bible or evolution and I have to say I was one of the very few that believed in the bible. It hurt. Then I went on to my next class and was shocked to find that this teacher wanted me to point out a religion and what people thought was unethical about it. If you were actually reading the instructions you would know a little more of why I was upset. Then I get to reading and could not believe how many non-Christians I had in my class and was even more hurt by the bashing of the Christian name. Of course I am a Christian, but I am Pentecostal Holiness (Church of God) and I stated what people thought were negative about being a Christian and about being Church of God, but I help my head up as I typed about the truth behind my religion. I said what I needed to say and I got out of there. People can judge me, but I only care about being judged by one person and that is God.

Here is a little something a friend posted on facebook right after I got through with discussions:

I thought you would like to watch. Please watch it all the way through. There's no pretty pictures, but I promise there is sarcasm and a meaning behind it. It has a great point. And it is INTENSE!



Well I'm not sure I will post again until after I get back from Spring Break, but I definately wanted to drop in and let everyone know I wasn't missing and write about my church and experience with school for me to look back at whenever times get rough.

WILW!!!

I'm linking up with Jamie for What I'm Loving Wednesday!



I'm loving that I have yummy green velvet cupcakes cooking in my oven right now and people here to eat them so I don't have to eat more than I am allowed :)

I'm loving that this little booger is back to see me.


I'm loving that I have the best nieces and nephews in the world. (I may be a little biased)

I'm loving the convo my 3 year old niece had with me today.
She said: "Oh no, I left my money in my car seat in the car"
I said: "It's okay, it will be there when you get back in the car"
Her: "But I was giving it to you"

It melted my heart. The last time the girls were here I was finding change and putting it in my big bucket and calling it my spring break funds and the girls decided they wanted to help and thought it was fun all weekend to find change in random places (car, ground, etc) to give me. So apparently little minds never forget because she's been saving me money..AWW. and Her Mama said that she dropped one in the floor on the way here last night and cried and she didn't know why, but now she knows. I thought it was the cutest thing ever.

I'm loving that I get to go to the dinner theater tomorrow night with my friends, for FREE. We get to dress up and eat yummy yummy food and while we are eating our college is putting on a murder mystery for us..hmm..should be interesting. I can't wait!

I'm loving that I get to go to the beach in 13 days and spring break begins in 9 days..yay!!!

I'm loving lots of movies: Burlesque, Life as We know it, Pure Country 2: The Gift, Love and Other Drugs, and the list goes on.

I'm loving my family and friends ♥

What are you loving?

Update on Sister...

I'm pretty sad right now. I thank everyone for praying for my sister that all the tests came back in her favor and that the baby would be alright, but we found out today that she lost the baby. Please keep her family in your prayers. She has an 11 and 9 year old that are taking this pretty hard. The little boy thinks it's his fault because he said he didn't want a baby because he wanted to be the baby and now is very upset because he really did want a baby and he was just saying that. They are all taking this pretty hard. I'm not sure if they are going to continue to try or just give up. She has 2 from a previous marriage and he has one and they've tried for over a year to have a baby and she was just starting to give up due to endometreosis and the doctors couldnt find a reason why she wasn't getting pregnant and then now this happened so I'm not sure what they will do. Please keep them in your prayers!

How to be Godly Women?

I've been doing a lot of thinking recently. I absolutely love reading everybodies blogs and quite a few of you have a close group of Christian friends. I see how all of you get to go out to eat together and have a great time and still live an amazing Christian lifestyle.

I've always been a Christian, but there's no denying that I did not live the right lifestyle for a while. Growing up I went to many churches in my hometown, but none of the were home like the one I went to for the first half of my life an hour away in the town where my mom was raised. We would always travel to church on Sundays. Last year around March I asked my Mom to go back to that church. That is my home church. We went every Sunday for a while and then I went to live with my sister for the summer and backslid. I've spent the past couple of months trying to get back to the place that I was before. This time I think I am even stronger than I was before.

Not only is God working in my life, but he has helped me to work in other people's lives as well. One of my friends had also backslid and hadn't been to church in almost a year and she has been going back to her church for the past month. We always text each other after our services and discuss what our sermons were about. Then, another one of my best friends has stopped going to her church due to work and the fact that they swapped preachers and it doesn't feel like home to her, so she went to my church with me this past Sunday and really enjoyed it.

Our sermon last Sunday along with our girl talk with my mom that afternoon has really got me thinking a lot. As I mentioned before a lot of you ladies have a close group of Christian women that y'all go out to eat and to movies and have little gatherings together with. I want that. I want my friends to be strong Godly women and for us to help each other in every way we can. There is a group of women at my church in the 30s and 40s and they grew up going to church together and they have always had that strong bond and been a great group of Christian women. I want that but I'm not sure how to get it.

It's really hard when in todays society it is hard to be a girl of my age and have friends with a Christian lifestyle. Sadly enough living a Godly life is looked down upon by many who are too busy partying and having a good time. I will not let this pull me down. Not to mention, I hadn't been to my church in years and many of the older teenagers have no clue who I am. I live an hour away so it's hard to go to Sunday night services and Wednesday night events. However, at my church there is a big age split. Most of the women are 30 or so and the rest are young girl between 14 an 17. There is only one girl that goes to church regularly who is my age. She is either already 20 or will be twenty soon. We are pretty good friends, but it is like them, them, and us. I am actually closer to the 30 year old ladies than I am to the teenagers, minus my one friend because she is also closer to the ladies.

So ladies I ask you how did your groups start off? How can we be strong Godly women?

ABC's of me :)

I thought I would fill y'all in on a little about me..hope you all enjoy!!!


(A) Age: 19, will be 20 in less than a month and I am so scard to no longer be considered a "teenager" but excited at the same time because I feel more like I'm 20 than 19.
(B) Bed Size: Queen and comfy
(C) Chore You Hate: laundry...I hate folding and putting the clothes away :(
(D) Dogs?: I have Roscoe Mcneal Jenkins who is a cocker spanial and Ally Cat who is actually a dog who thinks she's a cat..she's a miniature rat terrier
(E) Essential Start Your Day Item: coffee or cappucino (it used to be soda, but I don't drink soda anymore except on special occasions
(F) Favorite Color: Lime Green
(G) Gold or Silver? I've always liked gold, but a lot of my jewelry is silver so it's hard to where gold...my class ring was gold but I lost the diamond out of it :(
(H) Height: 5’3”
(I) Instruments You Play: Tuba
(J) Job Title: Student
(K) Kids: not for a long while, no man in my life to even be thinking about that
(L) Live: Albany, GA
(M) Mom's Name: Gail
(N) Nicknames:Carebear, Car, Cariebaby, Truck, Quay Quay(old highschool band nickname which was short for Shay Shay Boniqua Shaquineta Nicole)
(O) Overnight Hospital Stays? Childrens hospital when I was a baby, childrens hospital in like 9th grade for 2 wks, and overnight with my dad when he was in the hospital
(P) Pet Peeve: littering, smacking, rudeness to waiters
(Q) Quote from a Movie: "And we know a cow when we see one" - Burlesque
(R) Right or Left Handed? Right
(S) Siblings: sister-11 years older than me, brother-9 yrs older
(T) Time You Wake Up? wheneve I feel like it
(U) Underwear: boy shorts
(V) Vegetable You Dislike: mushrooms
(W) What Makes You Run Late: Reading Blogs :)
(X) X-Rays You've Had Done:everywhere...i've broken almost everything in my life and had tons and tons of xrays
(Y) Yummy Food You Make: hmm y niece and nephew love aunt carie's pizza and my thai it chicken, parents love my chicken and dumplings, and all of the guys love my red velvet cake and cheesecakes :)
(Z) Zoo, Favorite Animal: Monkeys and Zebras

Please, please pray!!!

Please keep my sister in your prayers! Please pray for a miracle! They are afraid that she is going to lose the baby!

Update: She has been spotting today. Her doctor was not there Monday so they did not check her then, but when she went back today after having some spotting they found that she has a blood spot in the sack. They said this could mean that the baby could abort itself in the next month or so or it could be perfectly fine. They also found that she has a huge cyst on her right ovary! Please please pray that the baby is fine and that both baby and my sister are healthy.

The plan He has for me!

I have been praying and praying that one day soon I will meet a good man. I pray for my future husband-to-be everyday.

I've been single for a whole year, by choice. I had experienced so many bad guys and the last one had completely done it for me for a while. I decided that I would take a break from dating and try to figure out me and what I wanted!

I ended up learning a lot about myself and what I wanted. I learned that I wanted a good man. I wanted a man that understood me. A man that would allow me enough space to have girls nights every now and then and to also have time with my mom. I need a man to understand the importance of my family. I need a man to trust me and I need to trust him back. I need a caring, funny, and loving man. I need a Godly man atleast someone who is willing to grow closer to God with me. I want someone to accept me for me and not want me to change. What you see is what you get! I'm not the prettiest, smallest, skinniest, tallest, and I'm definately not tan at all, but I want to be accepted for these things. I don't want to always feel like I need to become something I'm not to keep my man. I need this man to understand that I am going to school to become something of myself and I also need my man to not base a relationship off of sex. Sex does not exual a relationship and that is something so many people forget while dating. Is all of this so hard to ask for?

Now that I'm ready to start looking again, I've learned that I'm not the only one who has been worrying about my love life. Apparently 3 different coworkers of my moms including her boss have asked her in the past two weeks if I dated. Keep in mind this is the same college that I go to and two of these were my teachers in past semesters. And if that's not bad enough my 12 year old niece loves to ask me everytime she calls if I am dating anyone yet and informs me that I am getting old and need to hurry up and get married.

I promise I am in no rush, but finding my someone would be amazing! I will just keep praying for my special someone because I know God has a plan for me and when the time is right he will put the right person in my life! :)

Prayer Requests and Praises!!

I decided to link up with A Love Worth Waiting For for her Prayer Requests and Praises edition today!

~I want to praise Him for the wonderful news I found out Saturday. Saturday morning around 9:30 am I got a text on my phone from my sister(really it was sent at 6:23 am). It was a picture of a stick that said clear as day PREGNANT! I was so suprised I jumped straight out of bed and ran to where my mom was at in the house and said "Is it true?" I wasn't sure I was dreaming or not. My sister and her husband had been trying for over a year and the doctors ran somany tests and couldn't find out why my sister wasn't getting pregnant. They were referring them to an InVetro (sp?) doctor and my sister was deciding to just give up and further her education instead. She said she already had 2 children from a previous marriage (although she had messed up and didn't get to be in their lives growing up the way she wanted to be and wanted a second chance) and her husband had a little girl from a previous marriage. They both wanted a chance to have a baby together, but were coming to the conclusion that it was not God's plan for them. We all have prayed and prayed that she just got this one chance to have this baby. She's wanted it so much and I've seen her go through months thinking she could be pregnant and then get let down just as quick. This is a very high risk pregnancy. The doctor believed that she has lost a few babies in the past few months that she has been trying. She really needs lots of prayers for a healthy pregnancy and for a healthy baby. Please keep her in your prayers!

~My Aunt Wanda needs lots of prayers. About two weeks ago she was watching her grandaughter and tripped over the baby gate. She busted her mouth and got bruised up really bad. However, a few days later instead of getting better, her mouth wouldn't stop bleeding and she started getting bruises everywhere in places she didn't even fall, along with these pin like purple dots all over her. She went to school planning to teach, but went to the nurse before class. The nurse said she needed to go to the doctor immediately and my aunt made an appointment for after lunch. The principal ended up making her go home until her appointment. The doctors ran tests and sent her home and within a few hours the doctors office was calling telling her to go to the hospital immediately. Her blood platelets were supposed to be 150,000 but they were only 900. The gave her four bags of plasma while she was at the hospital and ran lots of tests and sent them off including bone marrow. Her levels are finally back up, but are slowly declining again. The doctor is sending her to a specialist at Emory because he says he has never seen a case like this in his life. They are leaning torwards Leukemia still. Please, Please keep her in your prayers.

~My grandaddy has been very sick and has not been himself at all. He is always lively, but recently he's been very down and can't seem to shake the Flu that he has been battling. We are not sure if he is just worried about what is going on with my aunt, his baby daughter, or actually sick. The doctors have also been discussing putting him on dialysis because his kidney's have been causing him trouble. Please pray for him?

~Please pray for my brothers marriage. It seems that everytime things get to going good for them that something comes along to cause drama. He is going back over seas the week after Easter and his wife and kids are coming to stay with us. His wife loved my church when we took her before and I am praying that we can get her and the kids involved with the church while they are here.

~Please pray that I keep drawing myself closer to God. I don't want to backslide again. I want to live a Godly life.

~Please pray that I get accepted into the nursing program. I want this more than anything and I know I can do it!

Thanks for listening to my prayer requests and praises and feel free to comment with anything you would like to add to my prayer requests and praises :)

Me weekend :)

Friday night I went out to eat with the girs. I sadly didn't get any pictures. After going from resturaunt to resturaunt with each one having long waits due to the Mardi Gras events going on this weekend, we ended up eating at Mellow Mushroom. It was pretty good but definately fattening. Especially when I had just broken my plateau that morning.

Saturday I woke up to a test from my sister. And Guess what?????

I'm going to be an aunt again. My sister is finally having a baby after trying for over a year and a half. I am soo happy for her! I know she has a ten year old and a 12 year old, but they were basically raised by my mom and she turned her life around and now is remarried and although her husband also has a little girl, they wanted a baby together and she wanted a chance to have a baby and raise it right. She went to the doctor and they ran tests and she is definately pregnant. They believe she is five weeks, but she is already gaining more weight than she should so they are going to examine and do an ultrasound and stuff next week. Right now we are just praying for a healthy baby and for her to have a healthy pregnancy.

Saturday afternoon I went shopping with my bff and then met up with my other bestie and headed to the Mardi Gras festival. It was fun considering the fact that I got mooned by some guys riding down the road when we were on the way back to the car..yuck!






Sunday morning I went to church. I didn't think my Mom was planning on going because it's an hour away and our church is down a dirt road and it had been storming and our preacher was also sick with pneumonia so we knew there would be a guest preacher. Anyways, from the time we walked in and the music started the church was filled with the Holy Spirit. It was amazing. I could not be still for the life of me. The preacher came to preach on another topic, but due to a woman or a few women in our church committing aldultery (which our preacher has preached about before) he knew that he was there to speak on a different matter. He acted out the stories he was telling us and really got all into it. Then he went on to discuss being saved and how he had a 72 year old man give a testimony about how when he was a young man his girlfriend had asked him to go to church and he went but for the wrong reasons. He went to sit and hold her hand and be able to have a few extra hours with her. He said throughout that church service that the Holy Spirit had spoke to him and when the preacher called everybody who had been spoke to and wanted to be saved to come to the front that he did not move. He said that today wasnt the day. He said that as he bowed his head and closed his eyes while everybody prayed he all of a sudden felt a hand on his back and the preacher had come down to him and said that the he wanted to help him get saved. The man said that he said no and made a dash for the door. He said that from that day forward he had spent his whole life trying to be a man of God but that he was empty because that day that he walked out of those church doors and turned his back on God. The Holy Spirit had been speaking to me (among others) the whole church service and when we all had our heads bowed, he asked those of us who wanted to be saved to just lift a hand for God to see and I did. Then he asked all of us to repeat a prayer after him, he asked the whole congregation to also repeat this prayer, because he knew that it would be easier for the ones wanting to be saved to say it along with everybody else. I repeated after him. After saying the prayer, he asked for everybody to stand and immediately after asked all of those who had asked to be saved to come stand on the stage and be acknoledged. This was the hardest thing for me. But I knew I had to do it. My whole body was trembling all over and I knew I couldnt just stand in the pews. I made my way to the front along with everybody else and the look out into the audience and both my mother and my grandparents realized what I had done was amazing. They were filled with tears. My legs trembled and my hands trembled and the preacher knew it as he shook my hand and the hands of each one of the people that had asked to be saved. I wasn't sure I could make it back to my seat. I was shaking from head to toe, not from nervousness or being cold, but from being filled with the Holy Spirit. As I stood next to my Mom as the church service ended, I felt a sense of Happiness and Joy and Holeness that I had never felt before. As soon as the service ended up my mom took me in her arms and hugged me with tears all down her face and my Grandma was beating it past the people to get to me to hug me with tears streaming down her face. Sunday, March 6 is a day that I will never forget.

The rest of the day I spent time with the Grandparents and my Mom and we went and visited my aunt who has been sick. She is supposed to be going to Emory to see another doctor because the doctors here have never seen anything like her case. Please keep her in your prayers! They are still leaning torwards a form of Leukemia :(



I hope all of you had a wonderful weekend :)

I got Saved today :)

I got Saved today. There is no feeling like the feeling I have had today.

I'm going to leave this post at that, as a way to mark the day and also because words cannot describe how I feel and how that service went this morning.

What's been going on in my life?

I know I have definately been missing for quite a while on here. I've been so busy and think I finally may be catching up. Here is whats been going on in my life:

~I took my nursing admit test Friday..praying I get accepted this time.

~I've been majorly busy with classes.

~I've been working out and dieting/ changing my lifestyle. I've only lost 8 lbs but thats atleast some. I seem to be stuck at a plateau for like the 3rd week in a row now though :( Not sure what to do to get off of it.

~I was planning on starting to train for a 5k today but it keeps raining off and on so my friend and me are going to have to wait.

~I've spent lots of time with all of my nieces and nephews these past couple of months. There hasn't been a dull weekend yet.

~On a sadder note, my aunt fell over the baby gate in her house and busted her mouth and passed out for a little bit. The next few days her mouth wouldnt stop bleeding and she started getting pin size bruises everywhere and then got huge purple bruises everywhere, even in places she didnt fall. It seems everywhere she touched was creating a huge bruise. She went to the dr and they found out her platelet levels were 900 when they should have been 150000. She was near death. They put her in the hospital immediately and took bone marrow, etc. to test. They then gave her 4 bags of plasma. Her levels are now at 172000 and they are done giving her plasma. Today is the first day since they have stopped and they are having to watch her to see if her levels stay up or if they drop again. They are still waiting on tests to come back and the doctors are afraid that she has leakemia. Please keep her in your prayers!

~I've been busy making Spring Break plans to go to Panama City with the girls.

~I have been pretty stress free thanks to removing one of the girls that caused the most stress and drama in my life from my friends circle.


~My brother gave me cobra rims for my stang. I'm so happy. They look so nice and make it look even more like a race car.

~I went to my colleges version of American Idol Friday night. It was amazing and my friend got the 2nd place position while two students that my mom knows well from working there got the 1st and 3rd places.

~I am also getting ready for our Dinner Theatre that is in 3 weeks. I wont get to dress up like I'm in the 50s like the last time it was held and my nephew was born and I couldnt go, but there is another fun theme this time. We are participating in a murder mystery theme. The theater is putting on a play and at the end everybody has to figure out who is the murderer. It seems pretty fun to me. Plus we get to dress up and have a 5star yummy meal and its free for students and 40 dollars for everybody else. Sounds good to me!

Alright, well thats my life as of recently. How have you all been?

WILW!!!

It's time for another edition of



~I'm loving that although my mom had to go through a painful surgery for skin cancer monday in which they went in on her forhead and scraped to her skull in order to get it all only to find that it had spread and they had to go in and scrape more and get the roots, but the good thing is they got it all. She has been in a lot of pain and could use prayers, but she is glad to be cancer free!!

~I'm loving that I have lost 7 lbs since I started this weight loss back the second week of January. This makes me extremely happy!!!

~I'm loving these yummy bars right here:

and guess what, they are just for us women :) That's always a good thing :P

~And guess what, i'm actually loving green tea!!! Yup add a little splenda to it and it is quite yummy!!!

What are you loving this week?