I could just shoot him.

So I should have known Friday night I was getting sick, because my head had beeen hurting all day and my mom and me had planned this fun fun night of shopping and good food and icecream, but while shopping I couldn't get her to give me an honest opinion and choose between two items and I flipped out and put everything back. SOOOO not me! I was so angry that I always had to pick for her but she could never help me so we got in a huge argument that resulted in the silent treatment. We went to another store to pick up something for my Futurer-SIL and I wouldn't help her look at anyhing, so she asked what I wanted to eat and I replied wit a very harsh "I'm not hungry!". So we went home and I took along nap until the boyfriend called to talk to me on his ride home. Then Saturday I woke up with a sore throat, but it wasn't that bad. After lunch though it got rediculously horrible and after I got some really cute shoes I came home and curled myself back up in bed only to wake up at 6 in the afternoon wanting to go to the hospital or the doctor or somewhere. I started burning up with a 102-103 fever. It was horrible. My boyfriend went to get a motor for his car and got all the way there, which was 4 hours away, and they didnt have his motor anymore, so he was upset and wanted to see me, but I was too sick. He ended up going out with some friends. Well I told him to behave and to stay out of trouble and went to sleep. I woke up the next morning feeling even worse and most definately couldnt swallow at all. I was choking on my own spit. I looked at my throat and could tell I had white patches and there was barely an opening back there, so I went to the doctor. They tested me for both mono and strep because the tonsilitis was so bad, but I was lucky enough to only have a really bad tonsilitis. So they gave me medicine and sent me on my way. I'm feeling better now. I still have a sore throat in the morning and at night but it's nothing like before. Anyways, while I was at the doctor, actually at the exact moment I was getting my finger pricked I got a text from the lovely boyfriend saying he had just got out of jail. My reaction...WTF? I have never had anything like this happen so I was completely shocked. He went on to say he got arrested for speeding and DUI. I was sooo upset. I chewed him out. I was like I told you to behave and you said you would and now this. I was so sick that I ended up sleeping most of the day and he really thought I was extremely mad at him. I am really upset with him and that we have to deal with this, but he will think twice about it for now on I hope. He has to realize he has me to deal with now.

Well this weekend I am going on the snorkeling with the manatee trip, which I really don't need to do and wouldnt if I hadn't already paid for it, and not to mention I'm not liking how I look in a bathingsuit at the moment :(

Seeing as how he wont be able to go anywhere even though he is off this weekend, he says he will be staying at home sleeping and playing video games(such like a boy). He promised. So I hope he behaves and doesnt get in anymore trouble. I trust him, but I'm still going to worry this weekend that he stays out of trouble.

Well I hope everyone has a wonderful weekend.I have a midterm tomorrow at eleven and then I'm boarding the bus to Florida with everybody at twelve. Let's hope I don't get any sicker and don't blind everybody with my bright white skin and giggly ol belly :)

Thank you Jesus!!!

I AM for a fact going to be an aunt. God works miracles! After doing the two tests over the weekend and another ultrasound, they found out that the little booger was playing hide and seek all along! I'm so happy. Thanks so much everybody for praying and helping my family and me through that.

I'm sorry I have been missing. I ended up with a no so wonderful tonsilitis this weekend and just could not get out of bed. I'm finally feeling a little better, but I have a dance test in Zumba tomorrow and I need to rest up so I don't have an oopsie- daisy while dancing.

I'll be back soon. I promise!!

Prayers

I'm so upset right now. All I can do is ask for your prayers and ask God for a miracle. Today when my brothers fiance went back to the doctor, they could not find the baby in the sack. They have to run another test tomorrow, but we think she lost it. Please keep them in your prayers.

Move, get out my way!

*This is a little different than my usual posts, so please don't be offended by my angry choice of words! I apologize in advance!*



*You may get DELAYED to reach your targets.
But every step you take towards your target is EQUAL to victory.*

That quote above is the truth. You see you never know whats blocking your journey to whats right. You could be on the right path and at any moment have the devil put a bolder in the way. I too have been hit with many bolders. And honestly they SUCK! You see I came across *controlling crazy ex boyfriend* who I thouht I was leaving to go on along on my journey to find what was right, but you see when I gt back on my path, I was hit with another bolder. This bolder a little bigger with a few more hills to get over. I first saw *Corbin Bleu* and thought it was love at first sight, couldn't walk past him without staring deep into those beautiful eyes and then I finally got my chance to talk to that gorgeous boy and he acted interested, but beautiful *Corbin Bleu* had a girl, a very pretty girl. I hung out with him one last time and went on my way. You see I couldnt compete with that girl. Tall, skinny, tan, dark haired, gorgeous girl. Nope, this little short, slightly overweight, pale, freckled face, blue eyed girl could not compete with that. Then I decided that *Mr. Crabs* was the perfect man, but he didn't want a relationship, he just wanted a little something on the side and now that he's actually single, just someone to call on Saturday nights because he has no one else. No son, I'm not that girl. I fell for you and you only drug me along making me think I was going to be your girl. And *Java* I want to give you a big F*** YOU!!! Let me tell you what *Java* did. This brave heart of a BOY decided to not only try to make me do something I didnt want to, but got mad and went after my friend. When she wouldnt do it things got nasty. Then on Saturday night she went over to visit, because I wouldn't because God told me not to and not to let her go over there. So she went with me only I found out later that when I dropped her off at her house at one something she left and went visiting. But you see she has bolders too and *Java* was even meaner this time. He fought and fought for what he wanted but when he didnt get it he says "You know this is why I don't talk to you and Carie anymore". Well Mr. Java eFFFF you!!!! Not everybody wants that 24/7, some people would like to actually wait for the right person and actually be in relationships with people instead of going around sleeping with every Tom, Dick, and Harry. You are no longer a nice guy in my eyes! Needless to say, we will probably never be going over there ever again! Anyways sometimes the bolders are there for you to learn lessons and I believe that this was our lesson. We had a big discussion and have decided that maybe we had both been holding back so long because we thought that they were what we wanted and honestly they are not, in any way. So we sat there and we thought and we have discovered that maybe we weren't give others the chance. She realized that maybe she really does like someone else and she has been denying it because of them and hopefully now she can move on. I have and I am so happy. I was very scared Monday night when I went to the movies with *JC* but he proved to me that he was a real gentleman and I am sooo happy with him. So ladies when a bolder is thrown along your path, never give up, just keep on trucking and knock that bolder right out of the way, because I promise that someting wonderful is waiting on the other side. You may not realize it now, but you will realize it one day and be so happy that you made it past those bolders.


Alright well sorry for getting so moody and preachy on all of you! I hope I didnt scare you all off!

What's wrong with me?

Oh jeez this day needs to hurry its hiney up!! I have one more class that isn't until one oclock so I am super bored trying to wait on it. Zumba was fun this morning although I learned I have a test in there next Wednesday dancing. OHHH NO!!! I should do fine though. I love that class and love to dance and as long as I can hear the music then I have the routines down pat.

Anyways a few of you asked to see pictures of Mr. JC(not his real name..just his initials). I guess I can show you all one or two. I'm so scared that we are going to be on two different levels though. See I'm the type of girl who wants a relationship sooo bad and once the person starts attaching themselves to me and telling me how much they like me, I start trying to find flaws and push them away. He already said he missed me a lot last night and that started my brain to playing those tricks on me. The questions popped in my head, "Is he going to let me have a life outside him?", "Is he too attached?", "What if the reason he doesn't already have a girlfriend is because he's too clingy like my ex?" "Oh no did he really just say that..oh god he sounded just like my ex. What should I do?" The questions cease to amaze me. I do this everytime. WHY WHY WHY?

I did tell him before we started dating about what I do and then yesterday I asked him to please not scare me away because I really liked him.

Okay so ladies I ask this, Do you prefer to see your man everyday if y'all are just dating or do you like space? How do you tell somebody you like space if you do like space? What type of guys do you all like? Is there something that pushed y'all away from the guy? What's your biggest turn offs? And lastly what do you think I should do?

Oh cupid!!!!

Well Hiya, How was everyones weekends? I hope cupid treated everybody well.

My weekend was amazing. Friday it actually snowed in South GA and it actually stuck to the ground :)Everybody had a wonderful day and night of bundling up and playing in the snow. I built 3 snowmen and had plenty of snowball fights. Every store/mall we went to had a pile of kids and adults having snowball fights in the parking lots and everywhere. It was absolutely amazing!!!


Unfortunately, I did not get to go on my date Friday night because of the weather, but I did meet him Saturday night. He is exremely tall and gorgeous and I really like him. He waited until after midnight last night/today to ask me to be his gf. I thought that was soo cute. So we started dating on Valentines Day. He apparently really likes me. I was so scared he wouldnt. I'm just scared he's going to get to attached and I'm going to overthink things and think he's moving to fast and push him away. I do that when guys get clingy.

I picked up some cute things for my sisters bachelorette party yesterday also. Can't wait to put everything together!

Today consisted of church where we had a band come in and they were amazing and then lunch with the grandparents. I came home and made a yummy dinner for my parents and me and then did some much needed cleaning. I'm now relaxing and actually getting close to ready to call it a night.

How was your weekend?

You scream, I scream, We all scream for Icecream :)

Apparently I'm in love with a lot of food..hehe..A lot of food that I currently can't have. Atleast I can refer back to my blog and indulge my eyesight in some yummy goodies :)




now if only i looked like this eating my icecream :)







Is your mouth watering yet?

























Okay, I'm done now and starving!! But can't have any!!

I have class and rain/ice/wanna-be snow to go walk across campus in :(
It's South Ga and it's trying to snow. It's not sticking, but every school known to man around here is cancelled, but my college..grr!!!!

First date nerves!

I'm soooo nervous!! I started talking to this guy today.

Pros: he seems to be really sweet
he's attractive
TALL
he's 20
he likes racing like me

Cons: he has a 3 year old
I don't know why he is single
he's extremely skinny, so I'm scared I'm going to feel big

Anyways he asked me on a date tomorrow night. So, after I go to that dinner with my bestie, we are going to the movies to meet him for a date. He originally wanted a full blown date, picking me up and everything, but I already had the other planned. I also am very shy and he says he is also, so I wanted my best friend to actually come with us. I'm so scared and doing the overthinking thing. Why doesn't he already have girl, from the pics I keep seeing his teeth don't look straight, and I know that sound shallow, but what if he's missing a tooth. What If my first reaction to him is a bad one. I'm so scared. Why do I do this overthinking thing? What if he sees me and realizes I'm not a little girl and I'm not very pretty. I'm sooo scared.

Well I'm going to get ready for my dance tonight and hopefully going to get my mind off of this.

I love my friends!

I LOVE LOVE LOVE actually having people who enjoy spending time with my crazy self. I call these people friends. :)
Here's some pics from my crazy life!



and yes, he does have boxxers on his head..he went around all night saying he was back in the 60s..hehe





Morgan, my niece and me



Cheering on our boys at the soccer championship game on halloween!

My brothers fiance of which we found out was pregnant Saturday. She went to the doctor yesterday and she is 9 wks :) I'm excited. It's shopping and spoiling time!




yep, thats right..thats me and the bestie all spiced up in our combat gear :)


This is why I'm working my booty off to lose weight :(



*My fun suprise is on it's way! I promise!*