If you really knew me

I decided to jump on the bandwagon and do my "If You Really Knew Me" post! Most of you know about the showon mtv, but I on the other hand have only seen commercials. Bad me, I know! I am such a slacker! I've heard it's a really good show though and might actually try to watch it one day soon!

If you really knew me, you'd know that:

*I am highly terrified of snakes. If I see one outside or on tv I usually will dream about them at night and try to fall out of the bed because I always end up thinking they are in the bed with me. It's crazy. Hopefully this little bit of talking about it isn't going to give me bad dreams tonight.

*I LOVE mustangs! I used to own a 91 that was white and convertable with a black top, but I passed it on to my sister and got a 95 that is also white with a convertable black top. I love my cars to be noticeable. I get that from my brother who has a silver, red, blue that changes color, and lime green mustang that is sooo pretty. Seeing as how I don't have to money yet to get all that fancy with my car I stick with the pink theme. I have pink writing, pink tags, pink visors, pink everything and I am putting pink air vents and a pink gear shift on my christmas list :)

*I love, love, love August until January 1st. This is the time my family has the most birthday get togethers and of course Thanksgiving and Christmas. My mom and me have this thing where we find bargains all year and pick up stuff and put it up for Christmas. We have even been known to hide it from ourselves.

*I love, love, love to workout. Zumba is my favorite. I'm hoping to one day soon be able to become a Zumba instructor. My teacher at the college was a great contributor to that and really wanted me to do it because I loved it so much. One day :)

*I love to cook and most definately bake. I love trying out new recipes!!! I am also a stress baker. If I am upset or have had a bad day, you know where to find me!

*I hate talking on the phone. I don't know what it is about it, but I've come to the conclusion that I hate hearing my voice over the phone and hate other people hearing it or am scared that I sound funny or something. Geez, idk. Anyways, I text all the time and I swap between text and email if I'm home. I hardly ever answer the phone unless it's my mom or somebody I know really needs something. My best friends know not to call me, so if they actually pick up the phone to call then I know somethings up and I will answer, but everybody else usually gets the silent treatment.

*I've always wanted to deliver babies and I hope to one day do just that. I am hoping to get a job in labor and delivery after finishing up with this nursing degree and I plan to go on later and become a nurse midwife or maybe, if I have a great cheering squad, become an OB-GYN.

*Crowds freak me out. I always feel like people are staring at me. Stores like Rue2, Forever 21, and WetSeal make me so nervous and I get fussy and irretable by the time I get out of there. I guess this is why I love Kohl's and Ross so much. SOOO much space to shop!!! And I love online shopping also.

*I collect salt shakers. I absolutely love to find new and different salt shakers.

*I love Carebears (and my nickname has been Carebear all my life), Dora, and Hello Kitty. I'm like a little kid when it comes to this stuff.

*I for sure can not parallel park and lots of cars around me creap me out. I get so nervous in small parking lots!

*When cooking I am constantly running the water to wash my hand because I can't stand for them to be dirty.

*In 9th grade I became a model. I was originally hired for my long hair that they loved so much, but after completing classes I did everything from commercials, print, and even runway. Those were the best days of my life. Sadly I got sick and couldnt travel and although I would love to get back started now I'm just not sure how.

*I was Miss Junior Greater Albany Teen and competed in Miss Junior America and National American Miss.

*I collect shoes. I have a walk in closet full of shoes and am running out of space, but that won't stop me from buying more shoes. Promise!

*My sister is eleven years older than me and my brother is 9 years older. They both have been through pretty hurtful divorces which lead to a huge fear of commitment and marriage for me. I'm scared to death to find something like they had and I'm scared that my first marriage will end in divorce also. My parents are still married though and they give me hope.

*I'm scared of never meeting anyone and of not being able to have kids due to my endometreosis, ibs, ibd, chrohns disease, and my slow colon, but I will pray for a good man and if God sees fit for me to have children I will find a way.

*My new years resolution was to get my mom and me back in church. Church's in my hometown don't feel like home, but I grew up going to church an hour away in my mom's hometown where my grandparents and all of my mom's family are from. That church is home and that is where I went back. I am so glad to be back! We have been going to church all year and I am sooo glad that I got us back there.

*I used to play softball and was a pitcher for an allstar team. Those were the days :)

*I absolutely love anything that smells beachy or hawaiian. I love cocoa butter lotion and any coconut or pineapple scents. I absolutely love anything pineapple (pineapple sundaes, pineapple, pineapple salsa, pineapple cheese balls..etc.) and I love blue coconut slush's from Sonic.

*I'm obsessed with rings and antique looking jewelry. I am currently wanting a snake ring, an owl ring and nechlace, a lion nechlace, and any type of antique looking jewelry. I also have a longing for a brass nuckle nechlace. I absolutely love jewelry!

*I have one tattoo of birds that I got across my back shoulder on my graduation day. I got it as a rememberance from my granny that I spent most of my days with throughout my first half of my life. And also to show a symbol of me flying away and leaving my struggles behind me. I missed a lot of school in my junior and senior years of highschool due to being sick and the teachers though I was playing when the doctors took me out on homebound and made a teacher come out to the house and bring my work from the teachers at the school. The teachers made it extremely hard on me and the students thought it was a joke and that I had things easier than them. They tried to keep me from graduating and up until the day before graduation I wasn't sure that I was even graduating. One of my teachers wouldnt give me a chance and tried to fail me. I had to go back and take 20 test for her in 12 days. I did it and I passed. Those birds remind me that no matter how hard my struggles are that I can always fly away stronger than ever.

Now, In case I am boring y'all about my life I am going to wrap this up. I hope y'all enjoyed reading and learning about me and my life :)