P.U.S.H.

When knocked down on your knees, remember you are in the perfect position to pray! This is what I keep telling my myself, along with P.U.S.H. (Pray until something happens).

As if times weren't hard enough for my family already, we got more bad news this week. On Monday my sister went to the doctor. A while back I told y'all about a doctors visit she went to and the doctor calling her back due to some strange abnormalities with her blood. Apparently all of her blood levels were messed up along. Well she was late, so she decided to go to the doctor Monday. The test came back negative, but they yet again did tests on her blood levels. On Tuesday she recieved a call back to the doctor from the doctor himself. The doctor is 99% positive she has Leukemia. He said her blood levels had tripled since the last visit, not even a month ago. SO in 3 weeks, she will have more tests done to give us a final answer on the Leukemia. All we can do is pray.

Also on Monday my dad finally went to the doctor for his throat. He chokes everytime he eats. Theres so many foods he will no longer eat, because he chokes and gets sick. He will be having an endoscopy done next Friday and we will hopefully get an answer to his problems. But I pray its nothing unfixxable.

Also Tuesday, my Grandaddy is having his surgery for his blockage.

So all I can say at this time is that I'm scared, worried, and full of prayers.

yet again I'm asking why us

Why do things have to get awful before they can ge better? I just dontunderstand. My life was going pretty good besides a few minor issues, but then things had to fall downhill. No, they did not slip, they FELL!!!!!
I found out last week that my grandaddy has a blockage in his leg to his heart. He kept telling the doctors and they wouldnt listen. They finally found it and he is one of these men that loves to walk and goes to the flea market every Saturday and the doctor said walking could cause him to have a heart attack. Its hard on him I'm sure and he's very hard-headed(it's where I get it from). He has to go to the surgeon Tuesday to set up an appointment for the surgery. Please keep him in your prayers.
As if that wasn't enough for my mom by itself, my brother left for Iraq Friday again, only this time he left on bad terms. You see my sister wrecked her car about a year ago and she has my old car now, but she has to carry her kids a 6 hour distance to meet their dad sometimes and that car wont make it, so she's been using my brothers car. Well he go mad because there was a cigerette hole in the seat and hid the car an keys before he left, not to mention the caris in my parents name and being paid for by my parents. He also emailed my mom Thursday during the day and said "to hell with her", in those exact words.He left Friday with no goodbye phone call or anything. What do we do? How do I comfort my mom in a timelike this? I just dont know what to do!

bags and umbrellas

I am in need of some help..haha..no not that kind..lol. I need either a cute small bookbag or a cute computer bag for a reasonable price. Does anyone have any suggestions of where I can find any cute, cheap ones? Also I want a cute small umbrella because I dont feel like getting soaked again going to class and freezing the whole time. Any suggestions would be greatly appreciated!!!

It a comeback!

So how's everyone been doing? Yes, I do mean for you to actually answer me. I miss everyone. Things are finally getting back on track. I'm in college and currently trying to find a job. Everythings going really good, so I want to know how everyone else is. Hopefully this is my big comeback to blogger life :)

Scared to grow up!

The title says it all, I am SCARED! I am so scared of the life that is in front of me. I'm scared to grow up. I'm scared to have to do things on my own. I don't know how I will make it.

I start classes Friday and I'm not ready. I have these last few days of summer and then comes reality. What does my future hold for me? Oh the possibilities.

I know I'm stressing for nothing, but I'm one of those girls who doesn't do well with change. How am I going to survive?

Spicy Chicken Spaghetti

Spicy Chicken Spaghetti

1 box thin spaghetti noodles
tbs vegetable oil
1 lb boneless chicken, diced
1 jar traditional spaghetti sauce
1 can rotel tomatoes
1/2 onion, diced
1/2 bell pepper, diced
garlic salt
pepper

1. Heat vegetable oil in pan on high. Add diced chicken. Cook until done all the way through.
2. Add diced onion and bell pepper. Also add a tsp of both garlic salt and pepper.
3. In another pan, begin cooking noodles following directions on the box.
4. Add spaghetti sauce to chicken.
5. After about 5 minutes of the spaghetti sauce simmering with the chicken, add rotel tomatoes. Let simmer for another 5 minutes or until chicken has soaked up most of the sauce.
6. Lastly you are going to pour finished sauce over drained pasta. Stir until all covered and then serve.

Growing up :(

It's come to the time, where I'm realizing summer is almost over. I only have a few weeks and then I have to start college. As much as I try to deny it to everyone, I am SCARED. I'm not ready for big people life. I know this is the start of me having to grow up and soon I will have to do everything fo myself. I'm scared to death.

Not to mention everything with my college stuff has gone wrong. They at first never recieved my transcript to see if i was eligable for any type of help. Then they recieved it and apparently the classes I had to take during the summer last year to actually get my credit for my history class was not on there so they were putting me in as a tech student instead of a college prep student. After we got that fixxed, we had another problem. This is the one that makes me maddest of them all. The papers I got with my class rank and gpa were right or wrong, who knows, because the two definately dont match up. Apparently I was in the top 15% of the class, but apparently I'm not able to get any help because the GPA that I had was supposed to be a straight 4.0 because it was waited, and then with just the classes that applied to anything I had a 3.4, but on my transcript its showing im in the 2's. Wha the crap? I am so tired of this stuff already. So yeah, I dont get any help and I can't start of with the major I wont. I'm going to have to start out with a certificate program and then next semester swap over. I have to do that to build my gpa up. It's so STUPID!!! I was also supposed to get a half scholarship because both of my parents work at the school and they have yet to give me that. My parents were seeing about that this week, because everybody elses kids have gotten it, so they want to know the deal.

I never knew this stuff would be this hard, exspecially when your parents work there at the school and are there with the people everyday of the week. It's so messed up. Sometimes if I knew I wouldnt get turned down for all my medical problems, I would just go join the military.

Now I'm trying to figure out whether I should get a job on top of all this.