2011 decisions!!

With 2010 ending and starting off with a few crazy days of 2011, I have done a lot of thinking.

I know that I should just sit back and let God tell me what to do, but sometimes things just get so overwhelming.

I've been thinking about my future lately and thinking about how I will be turning 20 this year and I've never worked a real job and although I've been going to college for the past year and a half I don't feel like I'm any closer to the end. I've had to change my major from one two year program at my college to another and now I just don't know. I mean I've always thought of myself working in the medical field. I always wanted to be a doctor, but with my shakey hands and my grades, it definately isn't going to happen. Then the diagnostic medical sonography program fell through after I had my hopes up to actually be able to work at some OBGYN doing sonographies and working a pretty steady 8-5 or whatever hours job. Now I'm majoring in nursing in hopes of working in labor and delivery, neonatal intensive care, or mother/baby.

But I still always get negative thoughts, like I want to get married and have kids, but I'm scared of my working schedule being a nurse and I've never had any nurse's in my family to know how it works and how they juggle their lives and get to see their kids.

And then other times I think is this really what I want to do. When I see myself working I see myself in a cute outfit and heels doing somekind of job or a mommy at home in the kitchen with an apron on, but I never see myself as a woman in scrubs. I'm not saying it's not what I want to be and of course I love all of the cute scrubs, but sometimes my brain gets to wondering and I just don't know.

Are you a nurse? or What kind of job did you always picture having and what kind of occupation do you have now? Are you happy?

I want to be happy with whatever decision I choose! I pray I make the right decisions!!