It's play time :)

This is neat. I decided to play along in Lacey's game. You have a topic to discuss each day. I'm excited. I get to share something about me with y'all lovely blogging ladies each day. Buckle your seatbelts, you might be in for a bumpy ride. I kid, I kid. I hope you decide to play along also :)



So I'm so, so, so indecisive so it is really hard for me to choose my favorite song at the moment. I kind of did a post like this earlier this week, but I think I will choose a lively song today. Actually I'll let you in on two of my favorite songs to show you a little bit of my multi-langual side :)





okay maybe three

good things fall apart so better things can fall together :)

Well he pulled the last strings last night. Apparently everything is my fault and he said some things that cut off all of my feelings for him. I'm through. He can contact me if he wants to talk, but I'm DONE. I could care less if I ever talked to him again.

On another note, my mom asked about everything yesterday. I told her. And then today I'm thinking I just had a bladder infection or uti because today I dont feel weird and I'm back to normal, I'm just patiently waiting. I think maybe tonight or tomorrow might be the lucky day. Maybe it was stress.

And now the rest of the story!!!

In 9th grade my friends and I would rush to lunch. We would hit up the snack machines and go outside and sit on the steps. There was a computer classroom near where we would always sit. There was these two boys who my friends and I had a crush on. One was nicknamed Chad Michael Murray because thats who he looked at and the other was called Star because his name was Patrick. They would hold notes up to the window at us and we would do the same to them. It was soo much fun. I was practically in love with David who was the CMM guy. Well I didnt know he noticed me outside of that classroom during lunchtime. I was a freshman and he was a senior so I didn't even try to talk to him outside of there. Well a few days ago, after the break-up we started talking. Last night we started talking at 8 or 9 and talked until 3 this morning. He remembers all of it. The letters and everything. He said they used to rush to get to that class because they never knew what we was going to do next. He remembers me playing the tuba and said I was adorable toting that big ol thing around althought I totally disagree. I looked ROUGH!!! The best thing is that he likes me too. I never would have thought in a million years that I would have stayed up last night talking to that boy of all people. It's amazing how things happen. I'm excited to see where we go from here.

Who would you be in another life?

I thought this was a pretty neat post and decided I had to join in on the fun. You should go check out whoJulie would be :)

In another life, I would live here:


I would have a house like this in the middle of the country where my kids could one day run free and so could my grandkids.

I would love for my room to look like this

or this

or a little mix of both :)




I would want a spare bedroom that looked like this for the parents when they came to visit.


I would also love to have this room as another spare bedroom!


I would have atleast one little boy and this is what his bedroom would look like :)


This would be another room in the house. I must have a lot of guests :)
Wanna come visit?

I would also have atleast one little girl and this would be her room!

I would have these bathrooms :





and I would love for my kitchen to look like this:


I would love to have two living rooms that look like these:



I would love this dining room for just us

and this one for when we have guests


I would try on pretty outfits in this lovely place right here


And I would have this fabulous ladies shoe collection :)


I would drive this bad boy right here:

And even have one of these:

I'd most definately be married to this bad boy right here:


SOO, would you be my friend and come visit???

Have you ever tried sleeping with a broken heart?

Well you can try sleeping in my bed!!!

This song means sooo much to me right now!



Alicia Keys - Try Sleeping with a Broken Heart Lyrics

Even if you were a million miles away
I could still feel you in my bed
Near me, touch me, feel me
And even in the bottom of the sea
I can still hear inside my head
Telling me, touch me, feel me
And all the time you were telling me lies

So tonight I’m gonna find a way to make it without you
Tonight I’m gonna find a way to make it without you
I’m gonna hold onto the times that we had
Tonight I’m gonna find a way to make it without you

Have you ever tried sleeping with a broken heart
Well you can try sleeping in my bed
Lonely, only, nobody ever shut it down like you
You wore the crown, you make my body feel heaven-bound
Why don’t you hold me, need me, I thought you told me
You’d never leave me

Looking in the sky I can see your face
And i knew right where I’d fit in
Take me, make me
You know that I’ll always be in love with you
Right til the end

So tonight I’m gonna find a way to make it without you
Tonight I’m gonna find a way to make it without you
I’m gonna hold onto the times that we had
Tonight I’m gonna find a way to make it without you

Anybody could have told you right from the start
It’s bout fall apart
So rather than hold onto a broken dream
Or just hold onto love
And I could find a way to make it
Don’t hold on too tight
I’ll make it without you tonight

So tonight I’m gonna find a way to make it without you
Tonight I’m gonna find a way to make it without you
I’m gonna hold onto the times that we had
Tonight I’m gonna find a way to make it without you



I also never really liked Adam Lambert, but I LOVE this song!!!





This ones an oldy, but I am in love!!!


Sinead O Connor, Nothing Compares To You
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Those are the songs playing on repeat in my head right now!

Getting to know ME :)

I really needed something to get my mind off of things so I decided to play along :)


1) Whats your favorite easter candy? Reese's Peanut Butter Eggs

2) Who do you think is cleaner....men or woman? Women, although growing up we may tend to have messy rooms when faced with the real world we like to be very clean. I know I cant stand to be sweaty and love showers. I also know that I still have a teenagers room sometimes, but I'm supposed to I'm still technically a teenager and still live at home. But I also know that when I am left home alone on weekends that I can't stand the house to be nasty. I make sure all the dishes are clean, clothes are washed, etc. I feel like a big girl and know that I will have a clean house one day, because out side of my room, I can't stand a mess!

3) which do you prefer.....wordy blogs or blogs with pictures? Can I have both? I love to read about everybody and get to know people, but pictures are sooo pretty :)

4) Were you popular in High School? I was hardly there. When I was, I was Quay Quay the Tubachik and the band was the big thing at my school, so people didn't mess with me and I knew a lot of people so I guess I was an okay person in highschool :)

5) How many states have you lived in? ONE.....Georgia!!!




That is actually my town, but in the video they don't show you the really nice parts, so don't be scared of Georgia after watching this video. And where he says "MY small cities called Albany, Georgia", that is where I am from :) My brother actually went to school with field mob and I went to school with their sister!

6)Whats one blog you read everyday? Kelly's Korner!! :)

7) Peanut butter or Nutella? Peanut butter

Oh NO Monday!!!

IT's a Monday! I just didn't realize that my Monday would be this bad :(

On the way to the college this morning my mom and I got a call from my dad. Usually if he calls that early he has left something at the house so my mom answered with "I'm already on the way". My dad was pretty shook up and said he had just had a wreck. When we got there all we could see was ambulances and police cars. Then we saw a little boy on the ground with the paramedics and the car that was really badly beat up. Then we saw my dads truck and trailor and was trying our best to get through the light to see him. His whole front end was smooshed in. He was standing out beside it though which was a really good sign. There was another vehicle in front of him that had also been side-swiped. Apparently, the lady in the first car that was really badly beat up from the side and the front had ran the red light and turned infront of my dad. He could not stop with his truck and trailor and plowed right into the passenger side of her. It sent her spinning into another car that was sitting at the red light in a different direction. When everything was stopped, my dad took off running because her car was smoking and he pulled the one year old baby she had in the front seat out of the car while she was getting the four year old out of the back. He had blood all over him from the baby when we got there. The baby was the only one that had to go to the hospital. It had a gash on its forehead and kept screaming so they were taking it to the hospital to run tests. The man in the other car's wife was very entertaining. She had apparently already been by the wreck once on her way home from taking her kids to school, but didnt think anything of it. She recieved a call, but didnt answer it. When she got home she checked her voicemail andd found out that her husband was in the really bad wreck she had just got done going through. She needless to say came flying back to where we was at and was a nervous wreck. They were very nice. It was quite a scare and I'm sure my dad will be very sore tomorrow although he says he is okay. His truck is probably also totaled and this was th vehicle we were planning on taking to New York in two weeks :(

Then, when we finally started coming on to the college my moms passenger tire started making a lot of racket. It's not flat, but we believe it is coming aloose or her something is broke upunder it. Just our luck. And my car is all the way back at the house :(

Now, when do I tell the mother what I'm worried about? I can't tell her that today. We've had enough stress. What do I do?

Fear- F everything and run!

*I was sooo scared to post this, because I don't want you all to think of me different and because it's really personal, but here it is anyways. If you think you might be offended then I apologize in advance!*

"WE NEED TO TALK"

I hate those four words with a passion.

Everybody says that those four words could mean anything from I want to break up, I'm seeing someone else, I'm pregnant, or even I want to take our relationship to the next level.

In my case it was "I just can't handle a relationship right now". Apparently all his stress and depression has gotten to him. He still wants to talk, but doesn't think it's fair to me to have to deal with his mood swings. Perfect timing buddy! So here I am left with a man I love that I can only be friends with for a while. Maybe one day we will get back together. Hopefully. And then I'm left with fear. Fear of what lies ahead. I'm sooo scared. I wish I knew for sure what was going on with me. God only knows.

Maybe you can even help:
I'm either a week and 6 days late or 6 days late
Nausea
Cramps like I'm on it
Really tired/ I can't even watch a movie that I'm really into without falling asleep
Hungry, but can't eat
Dizziness
Mood swings
Constantly peeing (I don't even know how I'm going to make the one hour drive to church and the one hour in church this morning :(

But the test is negative.

So, now what? Thats all I keep saying. If it's negative, wheres it at? Why am I like I am? What's wrong with me? I'm soooo scared. What do I do?