Fear- F everything and run!

*I was sooo scared to post this, because I don't want you all to think of me different and because it's really personal, but here it is anyways. If you think you might be offended then I apologize in advance!*

"WE NEED TO TALK"

I hate those four words with a passion.

Everybody says that those four words could mean anything from I want to break up, I'm seeing someone else, I'm pregnant, or even I want to take our relationship to the next level.

In my case it was "I just can't handle a relationship right now". Apparently all his stress and depression has gotten to him. He still wants to talk, but doesn't think it's fair to me to have to deal with his mood swings. Perfect timing buddy! So here I am left with a man I love that I can only be friends with for a while. Maybe one day we will get back together. Hopefully. And then I'm left with fear. Fear of what lies ahead. I'm sooo scared. I wish I knew for sure what was going on with me. God only knows.

Maybe you can even help:
I'm either a week and 6 days late or 6 days late
Nausea
Cramps like I'm on it
Really tired/ I can't even watch a movie that I'm really into without falling asleep
Hungry, but can't eat
Dizziness
Mood swings
Constantly peeing (I don't even know how I'm going to make the one hour drive to church and the one hour in church this morning :(

But the test is negative.

So, now what? Thats all I keep saying. If it's negative, wheres it at? Why am I like I am? What's wrong with me? I'm soooo scared. What do I do?