Love him or let him go???

OMG!!What do I do? I dont know! I really don't. I love him. I really do. Do I want to make a mistake? NO! Where am I going with this? CHICAS I NEED ADVICE!!!!!!!

Mmkay so if you have been reading my blog from the beginning, you know I have had quite a few troubles with guys. Haha I've had the USC (as in Gamecock) guys and I've had the UNC ( as in Tarheel) guys!!! HELP!!! I'm a GA girl and I live in GA!!! lol..I'm a bulldog born and bread...Mmkay but that has nothing at all to do with this.

I guess I should start from the begging. I dated this guy Robert for almost a year and a half who went to USC, his mama didn't like me, and we had girls trying to break us apart. He supposedly loved me but because of the distance didnt know how to tell them to leave them alone so he studied with them and ate with them and went to movies with them and so on. Well his mom got in a car wreck and he lost his scholarship and had to go to work. During this time this girl, who's name will remain unknown decided to go behind his back with his mama and have his internet turned off and the long distance taken off the plan. She weaseled her way into the pick and his mom pushed her right on in on him. Well when summer was over and he went back to school he wanted to pick up the way things were and I was like you know ok and I did and then I found out that he had some medical problems his freshman year of college and they had flaired up. He ended up going into the assisted living home because he could not type, he did not remember much, and he was pretty much crazy. During this time I was told that his mother was not really his mother but was his aunt and his mom had actually died while he was in the hospital his freshman year. If that is true I do not know but I know I can not face him ever again to tell him that, because he honestly believes that woman is his mom. Anyways from the very beginning of mine and his relationship his roomate and me had a connection. I always passed his roomate off. Even when another one of his friends wanted to date me and even stood me up when he was supposed to meet me twice I still refused to date his roomate, though honestly and truthfully I knew there was a lot there and I knew I loved his roomate. Well his roomate had to swap schools and go to UNC because out of state tuition went up and his parents couldnt pay it any longer and I was supposed to meet him in January. Unfortunately, if you go back to the first pages of my blog you will see a video and some blogs about a bunch of drama involving a scam artist, well my brother was dating a girl who happened to be scamming us and over 250 other people. We went up there the weekend after she went to jail to help finish packing the rest of my brothers and sisters stuff up out of the house they were living in with the girl and he had planned on coming to visit me. I was so tired of being stood up. He promised me he was coming. Well in the middle of the night that Friday night I get a text telling me that he didnt think it was a good idea if he came because he might get in the middle of it and also it was supposed to snow. Yes, It was supposed to snow, but he claimed he wanted to see me SOOO bad. Well. I just never said anything back to him and that same weekend is the weekend I met the other guy who became my stalker..lol. Well J has came back in my life begging me to take him back. He says he loves me with all his heart and will do anything to keep me. I can tell he really wants me back by the way he was talking and all, but should I give him a second chance? I mean I love him, but is it worth it.

I kinda look at it this way, he is the only one from USC out of 6 of them that is left in my life and he has been there from day one and never really left, except for a couple of weeks, and he has always begged me to let him be my man, so should I let him be my man? Should I give him that chance? Is there a reason he keeps coming back? Ok I'm gonna stop now..lol..but honestly somethings there and I just need to know what to do with it.